Half Asleep

I’m laying there half awake. I always remember this, as I always think about it before I sleep the first night, again without you. I always lay there half empty. Always on the verge of tears. My stomachs lying on the floor and I feel sad. Really very sad.

I know what I want, but I can’t have it. I’m not very good at this game. I’ve always been great at getting my way, turning tables to suit, and finding a way to make them things happen. Now, it’s all out of my power. I don’t know if it’s a good thing or bad? But I don’t like it at all. I lay awake cursing myself, the situation because it’s not what I want. I don’t want to be alone here, now, in this bed, all by myself. I don’t want it.

I remember what I want. I don’t honestly think I ask for much. You’d be the one to know that for what it is. I’m half asleep, all by myself and thinking about what I’m wanting.

quotee.

'It's a partnership of equals.'

'Splots.'

my favourite people!

When I first found this picture, I grinned from ear to ear. I really love it. IT was taken at mine and Chris's engagement party. The most special thing about the picture is that it's been taken with two of the most amazing people I have the fortune to know in this whole world. One on the left is, Chris and on the right my mum. I love both of these, with all of my heart. They are the ones I can 100% rely on to be there, to give advice, and love and care for me. Over these last few months both of these have become my best friends and campanions. I honestly don't know where i'd be without either of these :) thank-you!

& @elllbelll for taking the image!