And, so here it is...

Hey! So we moved house like forever ago (for what it seems now) and only just managed to get the internet back. Yup, we've been living in a bubble! I have been practically living in with my guys and well that's about it. But I have finally settled in and is all moved in now.. so, i'm happy! I'm liking my new house, it's a tad smaller than our old one, (so keeps the heating bill down! thumbs up!) but it's much better, in pretty much every regard! :)
I now have my Christmas tree up 'cos my mum kept nagging me that it's under 2 weeks till Christmas.. (whoo) but I just don't feel the mood yet, I guess it's cos I've been so distracted with the whole moving house I put it on the back burner.. and now it's so close and blergh. Also it probably doesn't help that I haven't purchased a single present yet (Yes, I know!) but I kinda know what I'm gunna get Freddie, so that's most of the battle.. I mean seriously what do you get a 21 month kid who pretty much has most things?! He has like 2 massive boxes of toys and several massive other items! so yeah.. I'll add a few more to the collection..
Erm, I don't really know what else to say, apart from it's freezing and I wish it'd stop being so cold..

Going places..

So I haven't been blogging very much, recently. But truth is, I've been finding my feet, and being incredibly busy with my little family and our life. I don't have the time to sit around like I used to, which I do miss, a fair bit every now and then. I have a little person who keep me so busy - but I like being busy.
This week me and the Husband have been looking round potential other houses to rent, as our landlady has put up the rent £40 - (feel free to send her hate mail!) Which we don't think it's worth the raise, when we've found somewhere for the same costs which is more modern and brand new - (we'll be the first ones in there after the renovations!) We were amazed at what we could get for our money, especially seeing as the bedrooms are much bigger. So, we're still waiting to hear from them, which they reckon would be by monday.. (please keep fingers and toes crossed!) Oh, and we're looking for a possible Guarantor so if anyone wouldn't mind being on standby for that, we'd love you forever! (Anyone?)

Oh and my ID have finally made it's way back to my hands, so i'm well chuffed after 3 months of it being taken away :( *sobs* so now I can go out with the girls and various things, it makes my life easier - oh and also gives me the chance to learn to drive! (though on back burner whilst we are trying to move house!) So yeah, everything seems to be on the up.. We're finally, going places!

Drinking..

Everyone who knows me, the real me, knows I don't really Drink Alcohol, hardly ever.. but tonight it's one of my best friends birthday, and well it's an exception!
I've basically started really early, and notice that when you hardly drink, one sip seems to make you buzz no end.. so we'll see how the night flows, i'm so excited to be able to feel like a teenager again (almost) hehe! (I just had to post a little note...
oh btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELS :) 23 today! xox

Hello Beauties!

Hey, so I kinda come on here and realised there were loads of posts I haven't read from everyone's blogs! wow, it's so unlike me. I hope you're all doing well and by some of the entries sounds like everyone's having fun :)
I've kinda been having some fun of my own.. well, not really, I haven't done much recently apart from work, but I'm really enjoying it at the moment, especially the Christmas things! I dunno about you but Christmas is getting earlier and earlier every year.. you know the world has it bad when the adverts are on in OCTOBER. Like I always find it funny with the DFS advert where the Elf says 'order now and have it delivered in time for Christmas' - Erm, I damn well hope so, seeing as it's OCTOBER. I'm sorry, I have to keep reminding people it's actually not even Halloween yet. It's not the end of October. Yet everywhere it's Christmas, Christmas.. I just, I don't know, it kills the spirit of Christmas doesn't it?, celebrating it like 3 months before it seems to be happening.. 'cos then it comes and you're like, JEEZ IT'S NOT HERE YET?! I WANT IT TO BE OVER AND DONE WITH NOW!
So in a way, I'm excited cos it's time with family, but I just don't want it to be displayed everywhere, at least not till Halloween is over, right? It just becomes a little too much.. I like to look forward to it mid november-ish, then you can start getting all 'oooh, how exciting!' over it all. So yeah, my Christmas cards on the website will be out soon, kinda happy with how they all come out, so do make sure you check them out and buy, buy, buy... :-) (more info on that)

Not much else to report at this moment in time. Love you alls!

blergh.

I'm guessing i'm not the only person in the world to feel like this. I mean even I hardly feel like it, but I do.
 I kinda miss my freedom, I miss being able to just do my own stuff.. not owing time to anyone or anything. I know it sounds stupid, 'cos I'm so lucky in life, I have people who genuinely care and love me. I have some of the best friends anyone could ask for, I have my own place, a beautiful son and loving husband.. the start of my own business. I suppose I just miss being spontaneous and just doing what I like, when I like. It sounds incredibly selfish doesn't it? I'm sorry it isn't meant to, at all, I just guess I miss being .. I don't even know.
 I suppose I miss what could've been? Does that make sense? I reckon that's what I miss. Like when me and chris went away, I was looking around this shop, it had lots of little arty bits and I came across something that really took my eye, it was the most simple, but colourful design on a pencil case and I just loved it. I loved everything this person had done.. Then I read about this person (as there were a blurb) and she had studied at the same University I started studying at, and done a course that I was initially interested in, and was in awe - simply because it was like what I wanted. I liked her designs and I liked what she has then achieved. I kinda in a way, wanted to be her. I know this sounds like waffle, but I suppose I wish I could act my age again.
My friends are all completely different. I envy the single ones and the dating ones, I envy the ones with jobs and cars - going out and going on holiday; having money to spend. But I feel safe with the ones who have kids and married, settled down, because they're like me. I find it hard to be around the single ones, probably because it's hard to keep up and go out and spend the money, so in fact I kinda get left behind from them a little and lean back to the ones like myself. I'm not going to say i'm unhappy because i'm not, far from it, my life is busy and there's always something to do and is fulfilled with laughs and happiness. I like my life very much, I just sometimes wish I could get that feeling of being free back at times and a sense of achievement.

Wedding Anniversary

So it's been mine and Chris's Wedding Anniversary. 2 years gone.. It's been so quick, but an amazing 2 years :)
We went away for a mini break which was lovely, just to get away from home for a little while! It gets boring doing the same thing day in and out.. so to go away was rather blissful. Also to spend some well earned time together just the two of us. With us both working and having Freddie too limits, 'mummy and daddy time' (so to speak). We managed to have a lie-in till 8.30am?!!! (yes that's a lie-in when having kids!) and could even have a hot meal..
Also we went to the cinema, after a lovely walk and talk, oh and giggles! We saw Taken 2 which was amazing! We loved every second of it, rather like a bond film, full of action and rather dishy men to admire (don't tell Chris..).
My mum looked after Freddie for the night (no surprise there!) not that he noticed we'd gone.. when we came back to collect him he was busy watching TV! was like 'cheers love, love you too!' but a night away can really change everything and put in perspective, exactly why we are together and married. (I highly recommend it!)

October Wishes

So I've decided to do a 'wishlist' of the things I desperately want to buy, but I have no money to get.. so really it's a way of putting all the things I quite fancy together. Most of you will know that I've been out with my mum shopping and looking around places recently.. well, if I had the money, these would be my first buys!

(so if you're stuck what to get me for Christmas.. here's a few suggestions! :p)

*New Hair*

So many of you will know that I've dyed my hair for the first time EVER. (well, full head) so, here's a couple of pics for the change over.. I like my new hair :) woo! (apologies for lack of make-up and ugly face) :) 

Before:

After: 

Freddie; 19 months

So I realised I haven't done a post on my little boy recently, so I thought i'd give you a show of some of my recent photo's ...

 He has a doll called Bibi and he loves her to bits! He kisses and hugs her.. oh and feed her breakfast. (it's a distraction whilst his is heating up)

 We brought him a cooking set as he's grown fond of mixing things in buckets and pots, so we've got a little two ring one that makes noises.. he's rather impressed!

 I had to include this one as it made me laugh! I kept asking him to smile for me and he went 'aaaaaaah!' really loud and well this is what the camera captured!

He's started growing up loads the last few months. Started to show a massive interest in trying to feed himself with a spoon.. so for the safety of our floors, walls and furniture we've been encouraging him to eat using dried foods so it doesn't get everywhere - if anything only crumbs! He's rather enjoying it.. :) we're ever so proud of him as he is starting to want to sit at the table like myself and chris, so it wasn't a surprise we found him out the blue sitting up the dining table! :)


I have a funny little video to show you, of Freddie attempting to hoover (he's trying to be mummy!) In this video I went to answer the phone to Chris and Freddie took over the hoovering.. You can hear both me and Chris chatting on the phone whilst Freddie's hoovering *hehe*

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I'm going to dye my hair..

So, I've been thinking of the idea for like, forever?! Least the last 2 years.. but the truth is, I've never, done a complete head dye! I've had highlights and lowlights, like 3 years ago, and loved them..
I have to say, I've always been a little scared and backed out, just in case I never liked it. But I've finally got the guts to do it! So, I've gone for a reddy, brown.. "Auburn" apparently. My mum reckons it will suit me - so fingers crossed! What do you think?

I promise I'll upload pictures before & after for you :)

*Owl Necklace*

So yesterday I went shopping with with my Mumma in the City. It was a lovely day, so warm and sunny.. Also had some money to splash (due to the business) so I was able to buy myself a couple of treats! (And well, I deserve it anyhow!)
I'm an enormous fan of long necklaces (I always have!) but, admittedly I don't wear them as often as I used to.. Simply as Freddie keeps pulling them, and earrings! But it doesn't stop me from buying this beauty.
I instantly fell in love with this owl necklace from Accessorize! (I looked in the window display and knew I had to have it!) I love the fact that owls are making such a hit at the moment, everywhere you go, theres beautiful owl patterns. (I'm lapping it up :))  He has actual feathers and is so soft; the eyes look adorable and falls at such a lovely length. There was a choice of this one and also one with 'peacock feathers' .. I  may have to get that one too at a later date.. hehe! I will keep him forever, however I am scared to wear it in case I ruin it. But meh, gotta love it whilst you still can. :)
He goes with every outfit and is wow. Safe to say, I'm rather smitten with him ^.^
Fancy one yourself? Well he's only £12!

Trust.

So last night I watched a film called 'Trust'. I have never felt so moved by a film ever. I suppose that's why I'm talking about it, but I just was in tears, but genuine tears. I never normally cry at films unless it has some personal link or something I feel strongly about.
This film wasn't shown in the cinema. It was based as a small film, but because of it's nature they weren't allowed to show it worldwide. It's a highly sensitive film to watch.. because, myself I understood the parts of both sides, the girl and the parents. This film was about a young girl (14) developing a friendship over the internet over a few months, and he suggests meeting up, yet actually it's a man in his 40's and results in a sexual assault. Watch the Trailer here.
Alot of young people talk to people they don't know over the internet, and most will be harmless, but some clearly are not. There's no way you'd know about whether they were or not. I personally have spoken to lots of people online, how many of them were not who they seemed to be? Who knows, luckily for myself I have never been put in a situation where I had to find out. So, I understood how the girl felt, but the guy wasn't who he seemed to be, he groomed her essentially and the parental side of me was just crying out to her to realise, but she was so young and innocent.. that he worked her round. So that's also why I understood the parents argument, I couldn't imagine how it'd be if my daughter, or son got in that position, I suppose I'll never know. But it was just so heartbreaking, because they were such a lovely, happy family and something so tragic and emotional, ruined, what seems everything. They lost trust with each other, between the parents, and the parents with the girl.. They just didn't know what happened, or was happening.. And for that I felt so much towards them, the feeling of not doing their part, stop it from happening. Just so much emotion.

I watched the Director (David Schwimmer) on This Morning doing an interview about this film, as it was the first film he has directed. He was talking about how they came about it, how they tried to show it and everything about it. It was originally made for rape aware, so that young crowds and parents can see the effects of such trauma.
I honestly recommend this film to anyone, I have to say it was incredibly powerful stuff and well I have to class it as one of my top 5 favourite films of all time.

Glasses!

So I've had my glasses for a couple of weeks now. They are actually pretty awesome, I can see everything! :) I also, just love them 'cos they're so colourful and make me looks so sophisticated.. besides that they're great when I want to watch the telly - (it's like watching HD ;)) Now, which do you prefer? I love them both!

Also I've just realised that now I've uploaded the images that I've got the same top on, yet different cardy's! As you can clearly see by the photo's.. they're not taken at the same time, and def a coincidence! (hehe!)

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I've turned into abit of a fashion geek.

So I've been kind've interested in fashion blogs the last few weeks and really looking up at what's new and what looks good. although I'm loving the looking.. it's just not right, cos the make up clothes and everything won't look exactly like they do on them, on you. If that makes sense? And for foundation matters.. well, we've all got different skin types. But, despite all that, it's pretty nice to take a little look at it all!

I've been poking around shopping these days. I've been lucky by coming into a little spare money at the end of the month so I've brought a couple of gorgeous items. So here are a few items that I'm loving at the moment!

So this is my foundation at the moment, and being honest, I've never had much luck finding the 'foundation for me' they've always been too dark or applies too thick or thin. But for me this is the perfect one, they have to keep this forever! it's about £9 a bottle but I've had it for like 2 months and it's hardly gone down! I'm personally a really light skin colour, (I think it's the lightest colour you can get!) so that probably explains why it was so difficult!
I find it great for covering spots, it gives also a complete covering! It actually looks lovely and very natural. I love it especially as it doesn't make it obvious you're wearing foundation, you don't look orange in other words! So, I definitely recommend L'Oreal Paris, True Match!

So I've never been a massive fan of eyeliner, but I've been testing it again, but in grey.. I know it sounds like a weird colour but I always find brown and black too dark on my skin that it over shadows my eye area. Whereas I've found the grey, is much more subtle. I wear it both under the eye and over the top (as I'm not a massive eye shadow person!) and I've been told it does bring my eyes out.. so compliments and liking it personally, definitely means it deserves a vote! Also, it actually stays on! Most eye liners I've found,  rub off so easily, especially if you get hot or anything, which isn't a good look! This is from Rimmel London.

So I brought this lovely item Last week. I got this from matalan for £18 - yes sounds like a pricey item for a long top/dress depending on height and occasion. I could wear it for both, but personally it would look nicer with leggings or jeggings. (the way I'm choosing to wear it in this weather!)
 It's a really deep purple and has a gorgeous pattern on the upper torso and have half arm sleeves, but it's definitely one of my favourite pieces as it's fairly plain, yet can be part of many outfits. I love plain pieces for that reason as you can decorate it with many different accessories!  (going to be a bit part of my autumn collection!)

So I also got these shoes from Matalan for £10! what a bargin, they're so comfortable! I'm a massive lover of flat shoes, I'd wear them any day over heels! These particular ones are velvet on the outside to give you that perfect autumn/winter shoe! And also, I adore the colour loads! I love them so much as they go with loads of different outfits.. and well who'd argue with comfort? Not me!

So this is my nail varnish this autumn! I love the matt colour of grey. It's honestly gorgeous, (and goes lovely with the eyeliner ;)) Also for an amazing price of £1.75! That's so cheap! Only down side is that if you're fussy about how deep the colour is, then it need 4 coats, hmm. But hey, I want nice colour and strong! However you may not be as fussy as me... but despite that, it's lovely and doesn't smell like most nail varnish do! So check it out, as they have loads of beautiful colours and a 'vintage' range which I adore!

So these are my 5 top items at the moment! I adore every one of them!

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God, I'm so annoyed right now!

I don't know why it's bothering me so much but it really is. basically my brother split up with his ex the day before his birthday (yeah she timed it well!) and basically gave no reason whatsoever saying it wasn't him and that he was lovely etc and that she wanted time to herself and such things. My brother was completely heartbroken cos they've been together for like 2 1/2 years and for the rest of the summer he hasn't been himself, moping about.. and didn't get out of bed for like 3 days straight, weren't eating etc and I know it sounds so dramatic especially when he is only 15, but honestly, just think, how many guys do you honestly think does all that after breaking with an ex? obviously it's not always the bloke it's girls too.

I was so annoyed when they split cos I got on with her personally so well, we'd message and chat every time we saw one another, online and in person and she was such a lovely girl, they'd talk about the future and things - okay they're young but I suppose I just know that my brother really loved her and cared about her so much, his face would glow every time he was around her and it was nice. I'm so close to my little brother and he's so special to me that, even when they split it made me cry! I was heartbroken, for him. for them.

It's just that when she split with him she wanted to be on her own etc but another friend of theirs told my brother he was splitting with his girlfriend, for what seemed no reason aswell, which is so suspicious and made it worse cos it was my brothers friend cos he thought maybe they're together and she claimed they weren't, but they've been together pretty much all summer and tonight, I saw a pic of them both together and another girl (my brothers best friend) commented on how they were a cute couple - it made my blood boil cos I know my brother feared it'd be for that reason and hoped not but now they've gone back to school, I can imagine she'd rub his face in it.

My brother says he's fine but to be honest I know he's not.

I hate people like that so much. Just grr.

Why do that to him if you really cared? Stupid girl, you've honestly lost the best thing that could've happened to you. I hope she realises it. Also my brother gets someone who's truly worth it!

I'm getting terrible for these things!

It's been ages since I've posted anything and I'm so sorry.

Although I do have to say I've very good reason for, I am working! I am working on my business on what seems night and day.. but i'm loving it! I have started my website and it's all coming along like a breeze, been sorting envelopes, poly sleeve bags, card, invoice templates.. newsletters templates, it's a complete blast! :)

I have no words for how exciting it is for me, to actually see it all coming together, I have hopefully pinpointed a start up date of 17th sept, so we'll see, I'm working so hard to get it done to my estimate deadline. (I work so much better when I've got a deadline.. and a list of what to do!)

So i'll be sure to write up links and stuff over the next couple of weeks, hopefully i'll get a chance after it's open to do some more - ahh I don't know, but wish me luck! :)

A few things that have gathered up.

As the title says, I've got a few pics that have been gathering up for me to do posts about but tbh I haven't been on my laptop till now.. I always uses chris's mainly because it's on or on top of the heap.

So I've had a rather beautiful weekend, where one of my best friends got married! It was so lovely and sweet! They looked so in love and showed us a real special day, I genuinely wish them all the luck in the world :)

So now I can proudly annouce I am a God Mother! I got this certificate to basically prove myself. It was a rather nice day, and I'm so lucky I have such a cute god daughter who also gets on so well with Freddie, so it's all rather lovely!

I brought these gorgeous wedge sandals on Friday to go to my God Daughters Christening.

They're so beautiful and fit so nicely, I couldn't believe how comfy they were. They weren't that cheap, but they were worth the money as I will definitely wear them!

Wanna know what really annoys me? Sexism.

Now, I have to admit this is a massive bug of mine. I don't know how nowadays people can still be sexist! I think it's just so shallow, completely immature and very ignorant.

When I say this, I tend to use an example, I'm not going to use the boring one of the woman being in the kitchen making sandwiches (which by the way is so boring and pointless). But I will use the one that I have recently experienced in my life.

On Saturday I took my little man shopping and was in the new early learning centre just browsing - mainly for outdoor toys so that he can play in the garden with suitable stuff. However, I was looking at outdoor stuff and freds went straight for the dolls and prams.

Now I'm very laid back and cool about many things and I was at this. He picked up a doll, kissed and hugged it going 'ahhh' - (which was unbelievably cute btw). It was rather lovely to see a kid show something so much affection, only to my disappointment that Chris was like 'put it down it's a girls toy', I have to say I was quite annoyed by the comment, not only cos it was my husband but because of the bluntness and negative look and tone about it. Obviously me being me snapped it right up and gave the doll back and he was carrying it around the shop talking to it. now I bet a few people who may possibly read this may think 'wow, that's weird.. a boy liking a doll..' but why is it? Why do people feel the need to label toys? They are just objects that children play and create scenarios with.. A man is allowed to be a house husband and look after the children, whilst mum works. So why can't a boy push a pushchair round and pretend to feed bottles to a doll? It really angers me, genuinely.

It worries me that my son is growing up in a world where he's told to do and like a certain thing. Like he has to play with police cars and motorbikes etc. I mean he doesn't just play with dolls, he has dumpster trucks that he plays with lots and a tent and tunnels, but because he chooses to hold a doll that somehow makes it wrong? A child should freely express what they want to play with, and actually by doing that you're encouraging them to play and explore as much as possible, but also develop a wide knowledge. So why do people look at me weirdly because i'm standing at a checkout with a doll in my hand and a boy in my arms? because they have a sexist view and are judging. I suppose it's not their fault, because of the way we were brought up, but it proves how narrow-minded people really are. I also worry about him going to nursery and school where I no longer will be able to completely take notice of what he picks up from other people. I have a massive understanding to and for the parents who find it hard to let essentially their babies go. As a parent it's really difficult to try and balance, but also understand that they are their own people and at the end of the day, they have to have a chance to go alone. Although for the moment in time I can help him, steer him as best I can and well, always be there to do it.

This world just isn't suitable for our young ones, not really. too much nastiness going on. But yes, I hate that sexism is still going in the 21st Century... but will it honestly ever shift? Who knows. But not under my roof, that's for sure.

Family Shots..

Took some photo's of the family yesterday, mostly Freddie (the little monster) and they look rather adorable. I have to share them on my blog!

Lost Items Found!

So, I randomly decided to take a look in some stuffed to the brim draws in my dining room last night and found my beautiful, bow earrings with little pearls in and a fake diamond, but eh, we'll keep dreaming. I have worn them today and I forgot how comfortable and gorgeous they look with a outfit!

* A New Love *

So recently I seem to have suddenly got into a little bit of shopping and girly purchases. (maybe as I have a little bit more money than previously?)

I need to take some more images of my purchases really, I shall get there and do it when I get to it. Most of it admittedly are for my friends wedding next month (woo!) but a couple of cheeky buys too.. here's one of them.

I absolutely adore this bag, brought it yesterday for £10.50 reduced from £35.00! I do have to say, I love the locket and bow attachment.. it's so pretty and a beautiful colour. I have to say to Accessorize and Monsoon, I love it when you have a sale!

What to do?

Ever have that feeling where your gut instinct is telling you something different to your head?
Now I'm pretty much a straight person, and I like to think I'm honest and will try and help anybody as much as I can.. But, sometimes I do think to hold back incase of ruining something rather special. I worry that it'll come out wrong or they'll disagree and then resulting in them hating me.
So what do you do when you really need to say something that is potentially going to go really bad or really good? Make a risk? Or play safe knowing you'll still have your friendship... and wait, incase something goes wrong? then be there to put back together again?
The more I think about it, the more I worry, maybe it's just nerves? Or is it the voice inside me telling me I shouldn't and stay out of it? But, again, when it's one of your best friends life? I don't know, but I want to stay real to the person I am, so I'll probably say it, but there's nothing going to stop me from worrying.
Like they say, a friend who genuinely worries for you, is a true friend. Maybe I'll keep that in mind as I start to open my mouth...

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following a dream...

So, I've come to do a little update which will probably turn into a rant, but I've been really busy - I'm trying to set up my own company and it's taking so much of my time that I haven't really been in touch with most of my friends - but I'm sure they understand - (and i'll get back to loving them at a later date). so I've been locked in the house, out the house and well it's been pretty mental, least to say.
It's just that I kinda came to a point in my life where, I am happy, but, there's something missing, y'know? I've got everything I've always in a way, dreamt of.. I always wanted kids, a husband.. but in the last couple of years i've thrown myself into being a wife and mother that when I take time out, I suppose I forgot who I am and what I wanted. It upsets me to think about it, but it's the truth, I've neglected my dreams and hopes for my family, which i'll never regret but, now, I feel it's time for me. So really I've been working on something that I have much determination and so much will to put towards it, and it's proving to be successful at the moment.
I realised that because I had taken a step back that, I suppose I notice there being something missing in myself and my passion for life. Until I found it, and it's made me a better person, I'm sure of it. So I'm not actually sure what I'm saying but it's a ramble, but I hope you can relate or understand..

So because I've been busy, I decided to come on the internet and have a 'night off' essentially to just catch up on people and chill out.. but I started speaking to a old friend, and well I suppose everyone has a friend or someone they know that try and make it out that their life is the best, and sometimes get the feeling 'better than yours' in an over too obvious way? (get me?). So I start talking to this friend and she's like 'Oh, I love my daughter so much, I'm so proud of her. I can't believe she's so pretty. Loads of people have made comments on how beautiful her eyes and smile are.. she's so spoilt and loved'
And, then it's like... what do I say to that? Okay.. sounds great, I'm so pleased about that.. well done? I suppose it annoys me when people try and act like they're better or got something better going on, it's like they're trying to say something about you! Almost like they want you to doubt yourself, but I don't, I love my son and he means everything to me, my heart would be broken if anything happened to him, and that I love how talkative, carefree, happy and determined he is. but, because I don't declare it everytime I speak to someone, somehow he means less to me, than everything else going on in my life? I sometimes think I let things get to me, but, sometime I think people speak too much. what's happened to a world where it's all equal? Where you don't have to worry about what anyone thinks? Where you should be strong enough to stand up on your own? Where you could actually just be happy, without worrying?

Hiyaaaa

So I haven't posted in a few days and keep thinking about how I need to get on here and do it, but my cameras gone walkies, had a few pics of freddie that I wanna put on here and a video of it too. It'll have to wait...(I've been busy with a few things!) anyhow I found a couple of Images that look, said the right thing and made me smile..
So, I think this is soo right. Although I have ot admit every nown and then I moan about what people write on their page, but sometimes you've kind've gotta respect the fact, it's their page and if I don't want to read it, I should get rid of them... though you don't because it's a great chance to be nosey in someone else's business.. (secretly!)

I find this so true, I always love listening to the stories of my friends, and all the fall outs and gossiping about them. It makes me laugh, and well it's especially great if you both know the people you're talking about. I can honestly hear my best friends drama's over and over :)

I do apologise..

I'm sorry for the lack of posts over the last week, I know I update my blog every few days and have failed too. I do have a few posts that I want to post, but currently am unavailable to do so.

I've come up with a plan to set up a business... more details and notice soon.

Thank-you!

I'd like to say a massive thanks for everyone who reads my blog, you're great and so lovely! I mainly wanted to say thanks for helping me get to
1,000 views,

I know it's not 'loads' but it means everything to me :)

Keep reading! Many Thanks...

Limitless 4/5*

I actually really enjoyed this film, had everything pretty much what you wanted a sexy guy in lead, adventure, danger and tension. I am a massive Bradley Cooper fan, especially in 'The Hangover'.
It's a fast moving film, but it worked well, you got a real insight into the characters life and how he felt and saw things.
so basically it's about this guy who feels like he's loosing everything, he has a girlfriend who dumps him and no job. He catches up with an old friend from college and he gives him this see-through pill that he's 'testing' in these labs, supposedly legitimate (but it's not). So he takes this pill as he thinks nothing can get much worse, and it isn't for a while. He first takes it and it's amazing, he's intelligent, feels good, has energy and suddenly he feels like he's someone. He beats the stock shares and makes something of himself, but no-one knows he's taken the drug. It all goes well, his girlfriend wants him back, he gets a great job, a nice new pad and the world is perfect - whilst he takes the drug. It starts going wrong when it's known that his friend has been doing trials that weren't legitimate so, he finds that people are dying from it and that he's getting sick because of it, but there's lots of betrayal in the fact that the guy who gave him this big job knew all along that he was taking the drug, and he was trying to blackmail him by wanting to make more of these drugs but Bradley's character, was already a step ahead. As one of the side affects was that he's ahead in life, (the way the drug works) and also he skipped time and well, forgot what he has done because it makes him work so fast, that he actually gets accused of murdering a prostitute...
I definitely recommend! It's also a film you could watch again as there are signs you probably missed as you're so focused on the characters. I really enjoyed it, and would say it's in my top 20 films.

Bad Teacher: 2.5/5*

So this was a disappointment! I can't believe it made the cinema screen, cos it would've been a waste of payment as there was no substance to it.
I was originally really excited to watch this, because it looked pretty decent in the trailer, but the trailer was pretty much the only decent thing about the film.. It's a classic fall for the wrong person film, and to be completely stupid in the way of acting.
I did however love the character 'Amy' in this film, she was unique and funny, revenge was her game and completely suited her. It's not a film that you think or expect it to be really. I thought it was going to be full of laughs and be interesting, but it disappointed me majorly. I don't think i'd watch it again to be honest.

Avengers 3.5/5 *

So I'm a massive superhero film fan and this was another great one! Although I have to be a tad downhearted.. I don't normally go to the cinema to see films anymore because I personally feel it's a waste of time as I never understand any of the plot. Saying that I think it's mainly because I'm deaf and can't hear what they're saying half the time - is it me, or don't they speak very clearly anymore? It's especially hard when they have costumes on covering their mouth, and then it's all down to what's happening on screen. (so we constantly miss the punchline! Like the whole cinema laughs, I have to lean over to the guy next door and go 'what's they just say?' *is embarassed!*) I do love the atmosphere for films as they are great, I just wish they did more subtitled viewings for us deafo's.
All that aside, the cast were great (besides the Hulk guy - I'll explain in a mo) and it was visually very entertaining and there didn't seem to be much to it, like a fairly simple plot, try and save the world etc. I have to say, I didn't actually see what the point of Scarlett Johanssen - was she just the eye candy? Because she didn't actually do much.. done some swinging her body around in leather catsuits.. hm, yeah. Also the Hulk guy was disappointed, again this is probably a crap review on this due to hearing, but I didn't even know he was the Hulk until he pretty much turned green. Yeah, silly I know, but the actual person wasn't how Bruce Banner was. There was no passion or desire to do the mission, he just didn't look the part for me. I think it's definitely going to have to be one of them to be put on the rentals..

(though, Robert Downey Jr, was looks pretty hot!)

Hehe!

These are the pics of him self-feeding himself with a bottle,.. (in relation with the post 'Hi!')

A few images that amused me..

Seriously? I mean... really? Sorry to disappoint, but I actually wash!
Sorry, but this made me laugh, so, so much. Immature mind I know!
Yeah, I've gotta agree to be honest! I know that 'disappeared' has only one 'p' but it's how I found it.

Just Imagine eh? Be pretty scary to think...

Happy, Happy, Happy!

I am very, very happy.
Chris has a WHOLE WEEK off from work.
:)

I can't really smile enough, we need time together as a family and have so many things to do. Happy week? I damn well hope so!

Hi!

So I kinda forgot about my blog for a little while. I apologise with everything I have. I've just been so damn busy! So a tiny update..
My little man has started trying to walk which is so cute, 'cos he's so small but he's taking steps and getting more and more confident. I'm very much a proud parent at the moment! He's also been drinking bottles himself (finally! yey!) (I do have pics of this, but I haven't got them off camera and onto computer as of yet!) and also been clapping his hands lots, so major happenings in my life as sorts.. going to be my big boy soon! I can't believe he's actually going to grow up one day, it just doesn't want to happen, ever! I'm going to call him 'baby freddie' forever more.
Also, my Grandad from Australia has come down for the month so that's kind've been hectic, not that it should be. (he's the self-obsessed one) He is actually driving me mad with the constant 'me, me, me' chat, it's not a conversation it's a chat at you, which I can't stand the whole 'oh look at what i've achieved all my life, even though i'm a complete selfish bastard!' yeah, so.. (we'll forget this, move on and get over it..)

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I am very annoyed that Hollyoaks hasn't won anything at the British Soap Awards.
Think people should watch a proper soap. Just saying. Oh it makes me so mad! Hollyoaks is amazing.. Just *grr*

I have been asked to be a Godmother!

I am so happy, that I've been asked to be Godmother to one of the most beautiful and lovely little girls I've ever known.
I honestly feel so lucky and proud to be given such a massive title, I suppose. I've taken it very seriously and was full of 'yes' when I was asked. I've known Lauren's mum, Jessica since I was like 3 years old, we went to playgroup and school together.. yes we've had our differences, but I still consider her a friend. It was lovely to know that Jess felt she was able to trust me enough to consider me having Lauren if anything was to happen to her or her partner.
I've always wanted to be someone's Godmother.. and it seems my wish has become true! *squeal*

Wandering Thoughts.

So I've named this video, Wandering Thoughts.
I suppose it's a fairly personal account and issue, but I decided to post it on my blog. Do leave comments and/or thoughts, if you wish.
It's about my worry of Freddie when he was loosing weight and how he's getting better. some of you will know about this subject more than others. I hope you like it.

That moment of realising.

So, yeah, it was something someone on Sunday said that I didn't really think about at the time, however last night I gave it some more thought. I was just hanging out with my family and chatting and my Brother just randomly ask if I got a birthday card from my Dad.
I didn't.
At that time, I was just mixed emotions, I felt sad mostly, because, as much as I say that my father is useless and doesn't care, I know he probably does deep down, but he's just never shown it. Also, I'm first to admit he's been a crap father,  but he's always sent a birthday card or text just to say it, y'know? And I'd always reply with a quick and polite 'Thank-you' and move on.
I suppose I've got to the point where I get polite and move on, 'cos I've always felt let down and hurt by my father. He's always just dropped both me and my brother when it's suited him (whether he knows it or not) and I don't really want to let it happen again. I don't believe him when he says it wouldn't happen again, cos it always has, only this time, he's never said it again.
I think it might be the end of a relationship with him. I say it more now than I ever will because I have my own family and I won't allow him to do the same to my child as he did to me as a child. I won't allow him to make false promises, hugs, kisses and 'I love yous' to my son, nor to me anymore.
I guess in that moment that I realised, that my father had no thought or presence on my birthday is the day I've realised that I've become my own woman and have moved on with that failed relationship and hurt. That email I wrote to him before Freddie's birthday, did the world of good for me, it's the end of that chapter, the end of him.

One year older..

So I've finally made it to my 21st Birthday. I am officially what they call an adult, well they say it's 18, but, it's meant to be 21.

I had quite a nice day, I didn't do anything particularly out of order as I still wasn't feeling very well. (yep, had a bug all week!) so I hung out on the sofa watching One Tree Hill (a present to myself) and feeling sorry for myself. Well not so much the "feeling sorry for myself" part; as I had presents! Also, they were all ones I actually wanted, which is pretty awesome..

I got this gorgeous bag from Chris, I'm very much in love with it, so red,.. so shiny and beautiful!


















My Grandparents bless them are so lovely and brought me a Kettle and Microwave, both red! *squeal* My old ones were hand-me-downs and we've had them since we've moved in, so actually they're rather appreciated and loved.

My parents are waiting until they've been paid on wednesday, but they said they'll probably give me money! Woo! :-)
My Auntie got me a 'Next' Voucher, which I think I'll keep for Bobby's Wedding as they do have the most gorgeous stuff in there!
On top of that, my Damien Hirst Ticket came through the letter box! Happy as! :-))

I actually find this man very attractive.

Tom Ward. A name that's so easy to remember, by syllables and by looks. "Once seen, never forgotton." Quite Literally.
He plays Harry Cunningham in Silent Witness, in which I completely adore. Such a great programme and such a massive fan! Loveee! (some sexy pics for anyone who doesn't know him!)