..Well?

"Don't ditch someone you can't go a day without thinking about them"

Yeah, interesting.
How about if this person isn't good enough for you?
Or simply too good?
What about if it's destroying your inner self?
Or is internally hurting them?
How about if they're all you CAN think about?
And they never happen to think about you?
Now, you're going to still tell me, I shouldn't ditch them?
Or do certain circumstances change things?

I would.

'I'd wait forever and a day for you..'

Did you know..?

Did you know, that, for twilight fans, who are constantly on the Edward thinking line.. (or trying to suss out his wonderful mind..) that Stephenie Meyers, has put her draft of the twilight story, but from Edward's point of view.. amazing right!?
I think it's amazing, as I read the books, I always find Edward's face really interesting to look at and translate to feelings.. it's very readable, and I absolutely love this, so to actually read his side, is going to be fantastic, am so excited to read it truth be told!

'I'll keep on running for you, till my feet will take no more..'

Something Wrong..

You know, when you're close to someone that there is something wrong. You get a feeling in your stomach after the way they respond, or lack of response. Everything in your body heads towards something being the matter, yet, you may not know exactly what it is, but you want to dive in and help, or something to come clear.
When they so happen to be your best friend, everything is a live wire and without a doubt do you need to question there being a fault. What can you do, without seeming to be interupting? Without actually ruining your own body and self in the motion? How can you be a friend without hurting everyone in the mix? What can I do to save myself, and him? I don't like, infact I hate, knowing something's wrong and i'm not the one you need or want to come to, for shelter. I'm sorry.

New Moon

I was very, very, very, impressed with new moon! I thought it was great, and very like the book! This, surprised me, as the books never really very well go alongside the film, and the film ends up loosing out more than half book out, which always leaves you, hugely dissappointed. I wasn't really, at all, in anyway, rather than Bella not being as heart-broken as the book, and not arguing about Alice's part for her birthday. Other than that, fair does, that's fine, it worked and was impressive! And yes, i'd go and see it again, I really wouldn't complain to go again.. it was a fantastic film!

New moon isn't my favourite book out the saga, but it was very good with the wolves, and everything was just fantastic! NOW JUST MARRY HIM BELLA! (I really don't see why she kicks off about it in the book..) Also, I don't understand why everyone in the cinema screen goes 'OMG!' as soon as he proposes, it's stupid. Surely they should be twilight fans? Just, read the friggin' book, it happens! It's not as if they randomly put it in, like it never happens.. it did, so stop 'OMG'-ing! You make yourself look ridiculous doing so!

Bring on #3 film, can't wait! Oh and am very proud of new moon cast and directors, etc! :)

OH, and before I end this - Robert, darling, loose the 6 pack now.. you look much better without it! I can promise you!

yes, another one..

'You break my heart over and over again.. but this time i'm the one that's going to have fun, smashing it all about'

I love this book.

'Even more, I had never meant to love him. One thing I truly knew - knew it in the pit of my stomach, in the centre of my bones, knew it from the crown of my head to the soles of my feet, knew it deep in my chest - was how love gave someone the power to break you.'



Twilight Saga.
New Moon.
Chapter 9.
Page 192.

Quote

"Life is a maze.. Love is a riddle.."

List of Love

Me and Someone really close had a little discussion on the 'meaning of love'. It made me smile at how easy it was to talk of the topic and how honest it was.

"What does love mean to you? What do I mean to you?

Wow we could be here literally forever. But I feel love in its simplest form is, that no matter what you go through your feelings never alter. Distance doesn't matter 'cos they are always really in everything that you do. Their name makes life seem perfect. You never feel embarrassed by what they say or feel. Feeling together however apart you are and wanting the best for them, Even if it doesn't suit yourself. 'Cos their smile and happiness comes before yourself. Little things they do make you smile. The time together always goes too fast and their very presence makes you feel whole. Conversation is not always necessary as the face and eyes tell everything.
That's what I think it's about, and exactly how I feel and think about you. Wrong or not, but the truth as always."

something that made me smile..

"BECCCCAAA YOU 'EFFIN LESBIAN!!"
"IMOOGEENEE YOU 'EFFIN BI!!"

I've been talking to some mates of mine, I miss them SO much! Becca - now i've known this girl for like 15 years now, and she always manages to make me giggle for no reason! The start to our conversation always makes me smile - I miss her!
Just the 'effin bi, made it hilarious for me (:

Passage that relates to life

Twilight Sega.
Eclipse.
Page 100.
Chapter 4.

Here Bella goes to see Jacob, when she has been told she's not meant to from Edward. But she has to see Jacob, (her best friend) as it's been a while since they've been together and missing one another hugely.
Jacob talks of Edward and tries to understand his hold over Bella. He compares himself to the vampire. They have just had an arguement, and they discuss 'being human' as Jacob is part wolf but tells Bella he feels like a human.
The last bit of this Chapter reminds me of me and my best friend, the closeness and exactly how we are with one another. Thought i'd share this with you.

""You look plenty human to me," I allowed. "At the moment."
"I feel human." He stared past me, his face far away. His lower lip trembled, and he bit down on it hard.
"Oh, Jake," I whispered, reaching for his hand.
This is why I was here. This is why I would take whatever reception waited for me when I got back. Because, underneath all the anger and sarcasm, Jacob was in pain. Right now, it was very clear in his eyes. I didn't know how to help him, but I knew I had to try. It was more than that I owed him. It was because his pain hurt me, too. Jacob had become a part of me, and there was no changing that now."

All works of Stephenie Meyers.

Horrors of the Heart..

The heart is such a familiar function. Yet possibly one of the hardest parts of your life to translate. It's simply impossible to really clarify anything that may be felt. Looking at someone and everything changes in that instance is something you never quite get your head around.
Going to meet someone, everything suddenly goes nerve-racking. My breathing gets out of sync, my head goes foggy, why do I suddenly feel like this? Mostly to the question, why me? I carry myself, trying to shake the feeling off - unsure why it's there in the first place, and then it all comes clear. A simple smile or guesture and it all goes away. The last hour seems just silly now, I smile to myself thinking 'Why am I being like this?'. Everything feels right now. Exactly like it always should've been, no amount of time makes it awkward, between us. We'd be just like this even if we had just seen one another only yesterday. Talk, Talk and more Talk.
While the conversation flows, I realise just how much I want to talk to him, how much i've missed just having a simple conversation, laughing at the facial expressions and smiling knowing everything is secretly perfectly fine. It's only our insecurities that hold us back, the doubt, that we won't be, but we always are - so why continue the doubt? It's as if i've never actually met him before, he looks different yet familiar everytime we come in contact. His hair a little longer, seems to feel as if he's taller. Yet everything is the same, his face, voice, smile, body - everything is always just the same. Familiar. It's reassuring knowing that something so special doesn't ever really change, not completely. They will always be the same as you know and remember them.
So really, it shows no matter how long you go without seeing one another, that the feelings don't ever really go (if they are real) and that without them near, you do really actually appreciate who you have in your life and hold on for dear life. I've noticed, talking about the small things helps the big picture and that, the fuzzy feeling you have, will always remain.
The heart is a place people get scared of. Coming incontact with what they actually feel, it's natural and we all feel it from time to time. Just in the time apart don't loose yourself and store up your love to give to the next available time. I don't want to loose the nervy feeling anymore, it's part of who I am and what I get knowing i'm seeing you. It's the reality. Knowing i'm definately realising and looking forward to see you. I miss you, and love you. Walking there is one of the nicest feelings, as I know i'll once more see my best friend again.

Line of the Day

"Right about now.. would be perfect.. will you chop off my head please?"

Illness.

Blergh, I feel so ill. I HATE BEING ILL! I get so emotional when I am, so I end up crying for no reason! I just always feel so fed up cos I can't do anything, and normal stuff feel such a chore to do.. and gets me down! Was funny though because last night I got upset because I couldn't hear anyone talking to me.. I have earache so everythings 10x quieter and little noises are sensitive so it's horrible and one of my flat mates kept calling my name but I didn't hear them.. so someone tapped me on the shoulder and was like 'Logans been shouting you for the last minute' and I was like 'oh i'm sorry..' and just cried!
I hate it soo much - its bad enough being deaf without the illness on top of it aswell! so I was crying and one of my mates boyfriend was like 'awww!' and came and gave me a big hug and sat with me for a while.. (well till I calmed down..) just feel like a complete zombie and retard when I can't hear and feel ill - cos I like to get on with my thing as i'm fairly independant and when I can't do it, I feel stupid and useless. I know it sounds weird.. but meh it's true! and I don't have mummy to make me cheese and bean pie.. (she makes it when i'm ill!) or cheesy mash so it's like :( So I feel i'll have to make it myself..

Aching

How do you deal with the fact that, you just want to be with them, right now?
nothing has to be said or done, but the world would instantly feel better with them near.
My insides ache to be near you.
It's too much to bear..