'cos as a mother, you have to show them off!

I am really, very absolutely excited!

It's come back to December - I love December! Possibly the best month of the year. Not because it's cold, windy and miserable, but because you get to wrap up warm, buy people presents and wrap them up and give! Also, the christmas tree, and the festive buzz. To be honest I think that's what makes christmas so amazing - the buzz, everyones happy and getting ready for what will be a lovely day!
This year i'm esp excited because it's fredders first :) our first christmas with everyone included!


Oh and Chris and I were looking in the real food mag by Tescos and saw an amazing gingerbread house! We've convinced ourselves we're going to make it - 'cos it looks so beautiful! I'm not a fan of eating gingerbread but everyone else can eat it. (I like the enjoyment of making!!) We're gunna do it for Christmas day :)
Here's the link if you fancy making a gingerbread house too!

http://www.tescorealfood.com/recipes/how-to-build-a-gingerbread-house.html

if you do make one... compare pics? :D

Breaking Dawn!

So this AMAZING thing, has come out today. I'm not going to be all pyscho, but just recently (last couple days) i've actually become excited about it! I will see it at some point, but i'm not going to rush up to the doors..
It looks fairly decent, been watching lots of clips and listening to interviews and i've become that excited fan again! *hooray!*

Hmm.

Do you remember my rants about my mother-in-law? Well, I think at some point I shall be bring it back! But.. I don't know yet! I know the *ahem* has been back in contact, but waiting to see the results.
To my defence, I do think Chris has had enough of her and no longer want contact. Which to a selfish manner, I couldn't be happier with THAT result.. but, in my head that seems too simple. Something tells me that it won't end like that. But, we'll see..

bubba!

My baby has a tooth through! I feel so proud of him growing so spectacularly and just perfectly! He really is growing so big and older everyday.. so didn't realise how quick it's gone, it's not far from his 1st birthday! He's such a happy baby! (showing him off!!)

Just sayin'

I'm actually having the time of my life. I'm unbelievably happy and nothing is going to spoil it. Me and Chris have been making loads of plans for the future! (I can't really tell you some of them!) It's too exciting, and I just love him so much. Just,.. seems to be the best really does come to those who wait :-)

tbh its true.

Some people just aren't worth the time.

been forever..

Hi, i've been neglectful again, i know.
so how are you?

I'm good, just tired, so very tired, but i've not been too well. damn old diabetes - found out not long ago that i have a problem with my liver, which sounds pretty glum, but meh, gotta carry on living. despite that, everything seems ok. my little man is getting enormous (actually hes not) just getting heavy! but i'm a weakling so, i'd complain about the weight of a bag of sugar :)
but yeah, i'm a happy person, i've never actually felt more complete than i do now. had my first year wedding anniversary a few days ago - it felt amazing, just feeling like it hadn't been a year, although it has. it kinda made us feel like "fingers up" to those who said we'd never make it. yet we have and we're stronger than ever, so... that showed you. :)

besides if you actually want to know the things i do, you're probs best following me on my twitter @imz_oxox - i practically live on there now. n'night!

Baking #2

Above: I baked some ordinary fairy cakes (ones below) and mum loved them so then she asked for some more with strawberry icing, but it kinda went abit wrong - was too sloppy. So we made it a happy accident by plating it up, drizzling some on top and add some Jelly sweets - was beautiful, and v. yummy!

Below: The original fairy cakes with vanilla icing sugar/paste and a banana on top - was pretty scrummy if I say so myself!!

Everything's happening so quick!

My little man is getting bigger by the day, understandable, seeing as he's a young child tbh. Just I never knew it would go this quick, was kinda hoping he'd stay small, long enough for me to breathe.

A new story..

I have the inspiration of a new story. Was actually a dream I had the other night, that I scribbled down on a scrap piece of paper - was freaky as anything! But I'd like to change the names (as it was involving people out of my life) yet have the same plot, 'cos I think I'd make a good story!

Watch this space.

Back to Baking..

No reference to Amy Winehouse intended.
I've been baking again now i've the time and money.
Mini Blackberry muffins..

"tis been a wee while!"

wow. I've been sooo busy recently. I like this very much, I love feeling like i've got loads to get on with in the day. I don't do well with the got nothing planned :(
so what's new to tell you? well, my best friend has given me her invitation to her wedding, so i'm hugely excited for that! Freds is closer to being able to crawl - so adorable!! I've been able to spend more time with Chris recently, which is good, the shifts been changed a little so we can do more stuff together, we even managed to have a date last week! Saw the 2nd part to harry potter and had a chinese which was scrummy! Had such a lovely time, so nice to just go back to the beginning again :)
been shopping, went to peterborough on monday and managed to get a whole outfit in the sale for £20. bargin I say! and looks so beautiful! Freddie has a new toy and best friend, got a horse hand teddy which squeaks and rattles.. so, whenever hes upset, give him Herbert (the toys name!) and well he smiles and... tries to eat him. yeah. Also trying to put everything in his mouth, everything is edible now. haha! I love his scrummy face! :-))
(cba to write no more!) Xxxx

*squeeee*

I simply can't wait until I see this.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LO3LL5kvJkw

Ok, now I might've changed my mind..

I just watched this programme on ITV1 - behind the scenes of Harry Potter Part 2. Ok, so I was like "I wish everyone would stop going on about the last bit.." - but since I've watched it - I wanna go see it!
Gotta admit I've not read the last two books - I should, but I don't really claim to be this massive fan of the film/book thingy, so I spose I get away with it! *mwahahaaaa!*

Fredders Giggling!

This just makes me laugh non-stop! My beautiful man giggling :)

Pumpkin

My little man is getting all big now! (sad face). I don't like it, just like babies when they're really tiny; it's amazing how small he was and how big he now is! 17 weeks old..
Saying that he looks beautiful! He gurgles constantly and is forever interested in his feet, bouncing about and trying to walk - obviously supported! A right little munchkin :) His teeth is still trying to come through, just lots of lumps and bumps atm, hoping they may hurry up as they do craze him from time to time, bless him.
I love him too much, my little pumpkin!

July has arrived!

So.. it's finally July!
The simple facts of what's been going on - Had a party with all my girlies on the 22nd. Been shopping with Bobso - Was real good fun :). Freddie turned 4 months old yesterday (1st July). I watched Vampires Suck last night and I thought it was hilarious, Chris however didn't think much to it (what you get after having too good a sense of humour ;)). Transformers has come out, and I really, really wanna go see it - Chris has promised me at some point! Harry Potters coming out and everyone keeps going on and on about it. I have a new found crush - Ryan Reynolds - no, he's not related, h's an actor, google him ;). There is a moth that keeps flying aorund my house and it's bugging me, majorly.
I think that's it. Update, over and out.
;)

Q

"Crying is not a weakness... It means you've been strong for too long"

Ramblings

So, you always wonder if you're the one that's got it worse. Sometimes you do, sometimes we manage to be overdramatic.
I've had a real good time recently! I had all my best mates over last night.. and it was amazing, I've never enjoyed myself so much. 'Esp having one on one conversation with them closest people.. It's funny how, even though you had loads to drink, how much you remember. I wouldn't had changed a single thing..
I always wanna save people and make everything right... and I can't always do that, but it's so surprising how many other people have the same thoughts and feelings as yourself. I want everyone to feel happy, like I am.. :-)
as in the words of bobby 'Imma gunna stop rambling right now, 'cos I know I am...'

that awkward moment when you know you actually mean nothing.

I tell ya what.. (swearing is involved!)

Some parents really piss me off these days! Both my real dad and my mother-in-law have got this same thing going where they can't seem to see, and or admit they've failed their children. I mean they've been trying to guilt trap people into feeling sorry for them, or simply trying to guilt them into getting their own way.. I thought being a parent was about responsibility?! About loving and protecting your children, but at the same time allowing their Independence to grow?.. Making them make their own mistakes.. instead of lecturing them? so what's this moaning and constant going on about their own lives, trying to shift their problem and responsibility on anyone but themselves!?
It's really bloody annoying at the moment, just face it, you're shit parents! Or actually go learn to be a parent!!

Hoping for a happy ending!

..or not, but it'll be happy for the two of us, in the end.
I'm finally feeling so relieved and, actually happy, 'cos for once i've said what i've needed to say for a long time. It feels good! Ok, so it ended up being an argument.. I got my point across, but that's always the best outcome.
It'll end up with her getting back in contact, which will upset my husband 'cos she's intimidating. But we're gunna fight it together and that witch can't make us suffer no more. Oh happy days... now the question is, what else can I replace the drama with?....

Just a little truth

I eat when I'm stressed or unhappy. You'd think I was either very stressed or very unhappy if you ever looked at me. At the moment I eat alot.
Some call it comfort eat.
Fair enough, I comfort eat alot at the moment.

I know it sounds like an old record

I feel really sick to my stomach at the moment. I know I shouldn't 'cos I'm not guilty. But, I actually just feel so stressed at this moment in time, knowing whats to come. I don't know how you're meant to deal with a person who's threatened to take you to court over your child, my perfect 11 week old child. My happy little boy, that I love so much with every millimetre of my body.. It seems crazy, how now, I've, ME, got to come up with an arrangement where she can come to my house and see him. Touch him, hold him and be near him.
I don't want her to have anything to do with him, ever. Does that make me a bad person? A bad mother? Is it a bad thing to want to protect my child against, what I see is harm. A person who is set on destroying my family, spreading lies, getting people to ring my home and have a go at me, calling me everything under the sun, accusing me over and over again about things that I've never done, nor dreamt of doing so.
I've just had enough of the arguments, of the dissing, and the constant battle.. why can't I be left alone with my family to look after my baby, and home? It's getting pathetic, we've been together a year and half.. surely it must be boring to keep talking about the same subject? So, no I don't feel like talking to you, nor sorting stuff out, cos it'll never stop. I want it to, but I know what the evil womans like. I've just had enough.

A day for celebrating..

So today, on our calendar, it has become apparent that both me and chris have been together a year and a half! Ok, most people don't celebrate the half bit, but.. any excuse eh?
But 'tis a very happy day!

Just was ruined by mother in law coming back on the scene. Saying 'Hi Immy, I think we need to have a talk' - yeah.. ok, we'll see if you're capable of that. So yeah that shall be highly annoying and boring when the time comes.
Hey-ho! It's our wedding anniversary in 4 months, hip hip!

My baby boy

I got some gorgeous photo's done professionally last week, and I got them this week, and they're so cute. Really bring out the colours in his eyes :)
Well to be honest I've been taking pics of him loads recently. I mean, we all say how quick they grow.. but don't think you *really* understand it, till you see it. He's grown so much over the last two weeks! Makes sense why he's been eating constantly.. But he's so darn cute. Lots of love!!

(btw he's 10 wks in these pictures!)

I have to say..

That I am well impressed with Karma, right now!
Y'see this guy that I actually fell in love with back in college, has recently began moaning about this woman that he fancies, doesn't back. Yeah I spoke to him about it and all the time I couldn't help thinking that you never thought of me when I was in your position. But everyone said he'd get what would come to him in the end. It appears it has..
Only thing I can say is, Good luck trying to love someone who doesn't back, 'cos damn right it never gets easier!

But I'm not horrible to enjoy his pain. 'Cos I know exactly how much it hurts and goes round in your head, practically destroying you. But like I say, you never was bothered when I was the same. Karma eh? Proof it does exist.

I know this sounds crazy but,

Freddie actually just said Hello.
He's currently at my mums and apparently he's been trying to talk nonstop - he has always been a noisy bugger! But mum's been repeating hello, and on the phone I heard him say it.. it's more like 'ello.. but I was like OMG! He's only 10 weeks, nearly 11.. and he can already say hello. What a clever little man!
Feeling quite the proud mother atm.
:)

A trip back in time

I never realised that I've had my blog for over 2 yrs now, i'm actually amazed, yet happy. I've really enjoyed blogging over that time and well I do wish to continue. It's strange that some of the things I said back then applies for now. Especially the way I feel about Chris. He was the one back then and still is now, even through all the drama's we've had along the way, but it changes nothing. I'd still be lost without him..
I also never got that my writing was pretty decent in some ways, although bugger me, don't think I could write anything like it now. but things come and go, and it's nice to sometimes look back on what means alot to you, personally.

Aww, now I've a smile on my face!

My husband has just made my day.
He said that I'm his best friend!
And that he'll take me to see the new Transformers film!

Oh and one of my girlies says she likes my new and improved page - smiles all round!

Don't you just love it when you've been protrayed as the biggest bitch ever?

Oh what a week!

Most weeks go by and nothing happens, but this week was something quite different!
My little Fredders has become 10 weeks old and by the minute looking cuter! But this week we decided to get some decent pics of him taken, professionally - and they are adorable! Just simply 'cos he's going to get so big, so quick, nice to have some decent pictures taken.
He makes me so proud.. he was so well behaved, and laughed and smiled, so got some gorgeous shots, so hoping to show them to you soon :)

We also started him on baby rice, well it's baby porridge and he hasn't quite grasped the point of it as he licks the spoon and swallows it, but doesn't seem as of yet it's considered as food for him. Which is amusing in one way, but not if he's furious 'cos he's starving! But seems to do really well on him as he stays full for ages and don't seem to have as much bottle after noming down the porridge, which is best all round!

Although i've been having problems with the inlaws - well mother in law.. yeah, it's a boring story! but, yeah she's practically admitted she doesn't want us together, but guess what, who cares!? We're happier than ever, and even with Chris's hectic work, we've managed to squeeze some Mummy and Daddy time, which has been lovely! Despite his mothers inference we're at the strongest we've ever been - 'cos she's been proven to have lied and backstabbed, so the jokes on her after saying its all been me.. yeah, didn't think that through eh! Idiotic really.

I feel like I could...

commit MURDER.

(so if any members of the inlaws die.. - it's probably me!)

Hmph.

There is always someone that has to ruin the happiness in your life and family. Some person that likes to interfer and make the innocent ones, appear guilty.
Wish you'd just disappear.

It must be lurrrrve..

I've found that when talking to people I don't stop talking about my little Fredster! He's a beautiful little thing.. but naturally I'll think he's the best thing since sliced bread.. well he is tbh! I love him so much, I actually couldn't imagine life without him - I already have so many treasured memories with him, and I'm pleased to know they'll carry on :)

He's getting so big though, and with everyday he's doing new things which is so cute.. we're finding new games to play, and different ways to make him laugh and it's amazing! I've started to just randomly pick him up and hold him close and tell him I love him and he just smiles.. seriously, so lovely to see.

My gorgeous little carrot.. (he's started to turn into a red head hence the carrot..) love 'oo!

Tell me what you think

Many people say that you don't really see the real person you're with until you marry them. Do you think this is true?

I've come across these amazing pictures..

And yes, they were taken by me :)

Round here its sometimes easy to get bored..

I get bored so much recently. Simply as Chris is at work lots at the moment and to be honest I'm not going to moan about that as we need the money, but I got to say I miss him, and get bored rattling around on my own.. although I know it's got to be done. Due to being bored, I've kinda fell off the dieting wagon - yes I ate pizza! Now it annoys me cos I was doing well and to give in just cos I was bored seems pathetic!
But I suppose all I can do is try it all again, the world isn't going to end cos I ate a few slices of pizza.. (but it was nice! :P)

Now I wanna know whats going on with Doctor Who at the moment!?! It seems so sinister.. it's creepy, but alluring, so it's fantastic! I have to say last weeks episode with the pirates.. I have to say had been my favourite episode since David Tennant had left! But sometimes I do wish he could come back... (but Matt Smith you've been a great replacement, if I say so myself!)

There's loads of music shows at the moment.. I mean there's Eurovision - It seems to get more tiring, year after year to the point where it's like "No way.. am I gunna watch that!". Besides we're NEVER going to win.. But there's the Radio1 Big Weekend.. in Carlisle! Ever since I've heard its going to be there, it's like "blumin' typical!" - I so wanna go see one, one year.. but had to be there eh? I do have to say sometimes I do miss Carlisle, like the people, but I'm still in contact with some of them so that's great :) But am slightly jeal (stole it from TOWIE! Hahah!) that it's there!

To know you've done nothing wrong is lovely!

Nothing hugely exciting has happened this week. Apart from the much missed sleep, I have been given the chance by my little man to have a little bit of a rest this week, as he's been really sleepy.
He's started teething, which is a relief as he had started to cry randomly for whats to be seen as no reason. So to finally figure out he has a little tooth trying to poke out his top gum was nice to know, (just made us feel like we haven't done anything wrong!). I did wonder if it was a little early for him to be doing this.. but my mum told me that my sister was born with two teeth, so..

Also my little guy, has started sleeping longer through the night! We have changed his formula, which is for hungry babies.. and seems to be working a treat, he's going between 3 1/2 hours to 6 1/2 which is amazing, espesh after a hards days work!

As for my loosing weight scheme.. I've still no scales but I've been eating much healthier this week,(meaning 5 fruit and veg -(feels like my fridge is full of the stuff!!) and doing housework all day and walking freds round to mums) and been drinking lots of water which has been fab!.. so generally I'm feeling good, everything is good! My best friends having her wedding next year so I'm gunna make sure that I feel and look good for that.. so if that's not a goal I don't know what is!..

If anyones interested in loosing weight, this is the page I've been following:
http://www.fitnesstipsforlife.com/101-tips-to-lose-weight-quickly.html

I'm gunna start making this a regular thing

I hate coming on my blog and seeing the last post that I wrote, which at the moment seem to be a month or weeks.. and they're mostly moaning or depressing, which normally, weirdly is the time I turn to my blog, I wonder why this is? I suppose its a place where I can let my fingers write what's going on in my head. Although dispite them being negative, I can swear that they're true feelings at the time of typing..

But, now, Freddie is nearly 7 weeks old (can't believe how quick it's gone!) but, I'm honestly so happy right now, Ok, tired and sometimes a little stressed..

I'm finally becoming, well I feel I'm becoming better at it all, and i'm getting good results.. my house is at it's tidiest! I mean i'm constantly moving around, which is what i've got to do to keep on top of it all.. but I'm so happily doing it, it's like sometimes I'm in my own bubble putting washing out and cleaning up.. I like it! Also, I think the stress is calming down now that Freddie is beginning to sleep longer through the night and it makes all the difference.. Also, that mum has him regularly once a week which gets us all in routine, me a break and also him time to socialise etc with his nanny, grandad, aunt and uncles :) but they love him, and enjoy him going around there..

Now that I'm being more active, it's got me thinking I'm going to loose some weight, although i've never been one to worry about how much I weigh.. I sometimes think i'd like to just feel bit better, and kinda help make my stomach being so wobbly! (I never had this problem before! :(..). I know that chris loves me the way I am so it's not even for him.. Oh I don't know, I would just like to loose a little!

I've come to a problem though.. I've no scales!! I mean it's the most important part of loosing some weight, so that in a week or so I can go .."OOOOH.. i've lost some.." - but now it's kinda failed. I think i'll have to get some on Saturday otherwise it'll all be for nothing.. Hmmm.

I've kinda drilled into my head that most weds when Freds go to Nanny's, that i'll write on here.. :)

it's nothing much.

Sometimes I just think he deserves better. Sometimes, I feel like i'm doing it all wrong, like I shouldn't be doing it. I don't know who to talk to to be honest.

well there you go..

Wow, doesn't it scare you, that when you don't come online for ages, you get to a point where you can't actually be bothered to go on it when you can then go on it? 'Cos I've gotton to that point, i'm only now on here because i felt i owe it to my blog and facebook to have some love. If I was selfish, i wouldn't be on here, so yes, internet, feel the love.. oh, and appreciation!
To be honest i did sit in my house the other week and thought to myself, 'i'm going to start a little journal, so that when i can get on the internet i can practically copy and paste' - but i couldn't even be bothered to do that. It's kinda sad when you get to that stage.. but we all go through it!

Although there are things i can be bothered to do.. (just so i don't sound quite so depressed!) like get ready for little man to come :)
now i've been doing lots of that recently and it's lovely, to the point that i'm actually finished with that job.. and probably get to the being 'can't be bothered' stage again.. but, having money is what i need!..

I think i've officially been pregnant for.. well.. forever now! 32 weeks and counting..