Whenever I listen to the radio, I always say, 'OH I LOVE THIS SONG!', just how many favourite songs are you intitled to, before every song becomes a favourite? Here's some of my favourite ones.. of the top of my head.
Comfortably Numb - Pink Floyd
Fix You - Coldplay
The Scientist - Coldplay
Trouble - Coldplay
Mr Brightside - The Killers
I don't want to miss a thing - Aerosmith
Fireflies - Owl City
Everything I do, I do it for you - Bryan Adams
Come What May - Nicole Kidman & Ewan McGregor (Moulin Rouge)
Mad World - Gary Jules
Be Mine - David Gray
What About Now - Westlife
Evergreen - Westlife
Starlight - Muse
Snow (Hey Ho) - Red Hot Chilli Peppers
You - Take That
What Is Love - Take That
What You Believe In - Take That
Said It All - Take That
Patience - Take That
Rule The Word - Take That
Use Somebody - Kings of Leon
Paranoid Android - Radiohead
Misunderstood - Robbie Williams
Enternity - Robbie Williams
When You Say Nothing At All - Ronan Keating
Leave Out All The Rest - Linkin Park
Forever - Chris Brown
You Are Not Alone - Xfactor Finalists
29thJan.
..the list will forever grow :)
Friday, 29 January 2010
my perfect weekend..
I actually have the best weekend ever coming up, only tonight! I am SO excited! I'm getting to see Chris, which is fantastic! So excited to see him again :) and i'm off back home to not so sunny norfolk (so i hear!) for a few days... (thank heavens for no lectures next week!!) so, going home to see my mumsy (L) and eat ice-cream and drink unlimited supply of pineapple juice (don't ask what the fascination is with it atm) and spend it with some special people. Chris is staying over mine friday night.. and meeting the close family ;) ha-ha to him!
Saturday i'm meeting up with my best girl friend, and we're doing some shopping (yes, we have a double date on sat evening!) i'm so happy, cos i miss her so much.. it'll be nice to see her on her own and gossip about un-important things :) then, i'm going to meet up again with my love and el's bf.. and go for a meal. (this i'm both excited and nervous about) i've never been on a double date!? how do they go...? but at the same time, i'm going with a best mate.. so, that'll be fine, and i'll have Chris as my mighty protector of anything too dark and sinister! (he-he-he!) and then after that fairytale i'm going back to his and stay over sat night..
I think this is actually the best weekend EVER! going home and seeing 3 of my favourite people in the whole world! :)
I am happy, happy, happpyyyy!
Saturday i'm meeting up with my best girl friend, and we're doing some shopping (yes, we have a double date on sat evening!) i'm so happy, cos i miss her so much.. it'll be nice to see her on her own and gossip about un-important things :) then, i'm going to meet up again with my love and el's bf.. and go for a meal. (this i'm both excited and nervous about) i've never been on a double date!? how do they go...? but at the same time, i'm going with a best mate.. so, that'll be fine, and i'll have Chris as my mighty protector of anything too dark and sinister! (he-he-he!) and then after that fairytale i'm going back to his and stay over sat night..
I think this is actually the best weekend EVER! going home and seeing 3 of my favourite people in the whole world! :)
I am happy, happy, happpyyyy!
Monday, 25 January 2010
falling..
It takes me a long time to realise that i'm in love. I don't know why I have this problem. Maybe i'm scared of feeling strongly for someone? Once again? I seem to slowly yet surely fall for people. Well I say people, very few people, just a couple of people i've ever 'fell' for. I take time to trust people aswell. Maybe this is an issue with the loving people?
I know i'm capable of loving people, I know I can care and look after people. Make them feel loved. I know I can do that, but sometimes i'm scared. Hoping this time it'll be different, maybe they'll be different. Think different, feel different, speak different.
I've realised, not everyone is the same.
Not everyone will screw you or I over. There is some decent people, people who will care and love you just for being you. Take the bad and the good together. These are the ones you want. Maybe this time it'll be different. Maybe this time, it'll work. Not suffer a broken heart any longer. Someone, who actually, just wants to be with you, like you do with them? Maybe that's the start to falling in love. Being with someone that makes you smile and laugh, that cuddles you and give you sweet kisses. Telling you bits about their life and asking questions. Not feeling embaressed or ashamed to tell them. Feeling comfortable and content when they're around. Realising the little things that they do. Not wanting to be apart from one another physically. Feeling that the hand has missing fingers. Being excited to see them again.
I think they are the signs of falling again..
I know i'm capable of loving people, I know I can care and look after people. Make them feel loved. I know I can do that, but sometimes i'm scared. Hoping this time it'll be different, maybe they'll be different. Think different, feel different, speak different.
I've realised, not everyone is the same.
Not everyone will screw you or I over. There is some decent people, people who will care and love you just for being you. Take the bad and the good together. These are the ones you want. Maybe this time it'll be different. Maybe this time, it'll work. Not suffer a broken heart any longer. Someone, who actually, just wants to be with you, like you do with them? Maybe that's the start to falling in love. Being with someone that makes you smile and laugh, that cuddles you and give you sweet kisses. Telling you bits about their life and asking questions. Not feeling embaressed or ashamed to tell them. Feeling comfortable and content when they're around. Realising the little things that they do. Not wanting to be apart from one another physically. Feeling that the hand has missing fingers. Being excited to see them again.
I think they are the signs of falling again..
the way I am
I am the way I am.
I can't decide on anything.
I make hasty decisions.
I get attached to people.
I care too much. I worry far too much.
I laugh about nothing.
I miss people too easily.
I am very stubborn and will always win.
I am emotional and can be sensitive.
I believe too much in words. They are too important to me. I hate not knowing the right words.
I forget what i'm going to say. I think too much.
I have an over active imagination.
I never expect anything off people.
I don't like people spending money on me.
I like phone calls when i'm laying on my bed feeling sleepy.
I adore texts from the people I love.
I can't actually cook to save my life.
I like kisses and cuddles. I don't like tickles.
I like private jokes. I like the smirk and feeling before you're about to laugh.
I actually like to do the hoovering and washing up.
I like men in shirts. I like the smell of aftershave on the collar.
I like funny films and sketches.
I love fruit.
I like the clean feeling you have once you step out of shower.
This is the way I am. I am like this, I will always be like this. I shouldn't have to change, even if you wish me too.
I can't decide on anything.
I make hasty decisions.
I get attached to people.
I care too much. I worry far too much.
I laugh about nothing.
I miss people too easily.
I am very stubborn and will always win.
I am emotional and can be sensitive.
I believe too much in words. They are too important to me. I hate not knowing the right words.
I forget what i'm going to say. I think too much.
I have an over active imagination.
I never expect anything off people.
I don't like people spending money on me.
I like phone calls when i'm laying on my bed feeling sleepy.
I adore texts from the people I love.
I can't actually cook to save my life.
I like kisses and cuddles. I don't like tickles.
I like private jokes. I like the smirk and feeling before you're about to laugh.
I actually like to do the hoovering and washing up.
I like men in shirts. I like the smell of aftershave on the collar.
I like funny films and sketches.
I love fruit.
I like the clean feeling you have once you step out of shower.
This is the way I am. I am like this, I will always be like this. I shouldn't have to change, even if you wish me too.
Tuesday, 19 January 2010
it's been a long time..
Hey Friends,
I know it's been ages since i've written on this page.. and i'm sorry that I haven't been writing much on here. I've been so busy, and.. well have extra company in my life so it's all distracting. But, I like it.. even if I don't sleep anymore! :)
Chris, I think I adore you :) x
I know it's been ages since i've written on this page.. and i'm sorry that I haven't been writing much on here. I've been so busy, and.. well have extra company in my life so it's all distracting. But, I like it.. even if I don't sleep anymore! :)
Chris, I think I adore you :) x
Sunday, 10 January 2010
yes..
"When you get sick, it's nearly always the head and chest that's making you so.."
Yes, you are right Jamie. Quote of the month so far ;)
Yes, you are right Jamie. Quote of the month so far ;)
Jemima
My hamster. She was so beautiful, and cute. Had such an adorable face. Had different colour fur all down her back. Long and short too.
She adored playing in her ball for hours and hours. Used to come out every night running around my room, mostly when I was doing some washing or tidying my room. Making me smile whilst she bashed the walls and turning it into a game of hide and seek when I would want to put her back in the cage. She was a devil, gnawed on everything you got your hands on. She bit holes in my jeans and the edge of my dress, also my twilight book! But she never bit people. Not even at the end when she was in pain.
Everyone loved her, she was one to love at first sight! She was too cute and got away with murder. I actually loved her. She was my friend at uni, and admittedly I did speak to her. She was a friend.
The day she died, I was so upset. I took her to the vets thinking she had food stuck in one of her pouches, but turned out it was a cancer. The woman told me she probably been in pain the last couple of days, this terribly upset me. I adored her, and wanted to do everything I could to look after her. She was my baby girl. But, I didn't want her to get in more pain, or see her like that anymore, so I made the decision to put her to sleep. It killed me to make this decision. I didn't want her in pain anymore, or slowly let it get worse as there's so little I could've done. I know it's silly for such a little animal.. but she was my friend.
I love you Mima X
She adored playing in her ball for hours and hours. Used to come out every night running around my room, mostly when I was doing some washing or tidying my room. Making me smile whilst she bashed the walls and turning it into a game of hide and seek when I would want to put her back in the cage. She was a devil, gnawed on everything you got your hands on. She bit holes in my jeans and the edge of my dress, also my twilight book! But she never bit people. Not even at the end when she was in pain.
Everyone loved her, she was one to love at first sight! She was too cute and got away with murder. I actually loved her. She was my friend at uni, and admittedly I did speak to her. She was a friend.
The day she died, I was so upset. I took her to the vets thinking she had food stuck in one of her pouches, but turned out it was a cancer. The woman told me she probably been in pain the last couple of days, this terribly upset me. I adored her, and wanted to do everything I could to look after her. She was my baby girl. But, I didn't want her to get in more pain, or see her like that anymore, so I made the decision to put her to sleep. It killed me to make this decision. I didn't want her in pain anymore, or slowly let it get worse as there's so little I could've done. I know it's silly for such a little animal.. but she was my friend.
I love you Mima X
Friday, 8 January 2010
the same way..
A start to something beautiful..
I’ve only known you a week, but it does feel so much longer. We talk near enough all the time when you’re not working. I get to a point when I can’t wait for you to finish, just so I can talk to you. I also find myself wanting to tell you about my day. Then the night vanishes away from us. We talk up to 3 hours on the phone and it feels as if you’ve just said ‘hello’ and it’s so easy just chatting to you. Goes too quick! You’re not at all self obsessed, so it’s never just about you or me for that matter. You waffle on so much it really makes me smile, because I’m always the one that tend to do that! You give my jaw a rest, and it’s nice to hear your voice. We even talk over each other and laugh at the same time. Agreeing on practically everything and having the same rules about certain things.
We talk about the most random of stuff; you don’t know how much you make me smile when you play along with my jokes. Like a hamster called sonic. But wasn’t blue! So have to get a blue hedgehog, and purposely call it anything but sonic, just ‘cos everyone would just want to! And, my walking boots being in Carlisle, and won’t drop at my feet when I need them most. Saying they won’t fly, but laughing about giving them red bull to get wings! Hearing you moan about the snow and days at work is the nicest thing, it’s the little things.
The night you asked me out was funny, simply because I knew you were going to. We talked about the time you would, or how you’d prefer to do it. You were standing outside the pub in the snow and I was curled up in bed watching the film I was meant to watch the night before, but you rang and had to defer it till this night. Telling me that you wanted to ask me something, but you were going to do it the other night, but you forgot to ask me; simply because you were waffling on about other stuff. (This made me laugh!) Then, you just asked me. I couldn’t stop smiling because I really, wanted to be your girlfriend.
I don’t like it when you have to go to bed, and leave me. Then having to wait till you finish work to talk to you once again. I find myself wanting to complete everything in the day, just so I have all evening to talk to you. I love it when you ring me, you nattering on and me getting all sleepy from your voice, but feeling completely content and happy. It’s the nicest thing.
You’re a complete charmer, but use it in the right places and always ask me to text you, even when you’re with your friends. Saying I’m never getting in the way. Always texting back as soon as possible and making me smile when it says your name across my phone screen. I’m smiling again and I like, for once, not feeling guilty that I really like you. Not caring what anyone thinks anymore.
But do you know what the best thing is? You feel exactly the same way as I do.
I’ve only known you a week, but it does feel so much longer. We talk near enough all the time when you’re not working. I get to a point when I can’t wait for you to finish, just so I can talk to you. I also find myself wanting to tell you about my day. Then the night vanishes away from us. We talk up to 3 hours on the phone and it feels as if you’ve just said ‘hello’ and it’s so easy just chatting to you. Goes too quick! You’re not at all self obsessed, so it’s never just about you or me for that matter. You waffle on so much it really makes me smile, because I’m always the one that tend to do that! You give my jaw a rest, and it’s nice to hear your voice. We even talk over each other and laugh at the same time. Agreeing on practically everything and having the same rules about certain things.
We talk about the most random of stuff; you don’t know how much you make me smile when you play along with my jokes. Like a hamster called sonic. But wasn’t blue! So have to get a blue hedgehog, and purposely call it anything but sonic, just ‘cos everyone would just want to! And, my walking boots being in Carlisle, and won’t drop at my feet when I need them most. Saying they won’t fly, but laughing about giving them red bull to get wings! Hearing you moan about the snow and days at work is the nicest thing, it’s the little things.
The night you asked me out was funny, simply because I knew you were going to. We talked about the time you would, or how you’d prefer to do it. You were standing outside the pub in the snow and I was curled up in bed watching the film I was meant to watch the night before, but you rang and had to defer it till this night. Telling me that you wanted to ask me something, but you were going to do it the other night, but you forgot to ask me; simply because you were waffling on about other stuff. (This made me laugh!) Then, you just asked me. I couldn’t stop smiling because I really, wanted to be your girlfriend.
I don’t like it when you have to go to bed, and leave me. Then having to wait till you finish work to talk to you once again. I find myself wanting to complete everything in the day, just so I have all evening to talk to you. I love it when you ring me, you nattering on and me getting all sleepy from your voice, but feeling completely content and happy. It’s the nicest thing.
You’re a complete charmer, but use it in the right places and always ask me to text you, even when you’re with your friends. Saying I’m never getting in the way. Always texting back as soon as possible and making me smile when it says your name across my phone screen. I’m smiling again and I like, for once, not feeling guilty that I really like you. Not caring what anyone thinks anymore.
But do you know what the best thing is? You feel exactly the same way as I do.
Wednesday, 6 January 2010
A new year!
A new year, means a new start.
I'm doing exactly that. Also, it's about time I did.
Actually feeling fairly happy! Something I don't think i've had in a long time, and that makes me frown, because, I was always a happy person. I suppose sometimes you just have to realise what it is that does, and will make you happy.
Being a teacher, having someone to love and care for; (that happily, feels the same way!), keeping in touch with my girls and closest friends (yes, you, Joan, Alice, Jamie, Tom and Amy!) and still continue to be able to read and write in amongst it. Not much to ask for is it?
I'm finally, hoping, that this is all going to come true.
I'm finally smiling again, and trying to put myself first (doesn't mean I don't no longer care about people, hell no!) but, I can't please everyone.. I know that now, so it's about time I started pleasing myself! Just a shame you have to loose some parts behind.. but eh, have to give and take. Doesn't mean I stopped loving them, no, just means i've began to stop hurting. I'll always love and care for them. Deep down they know that.
I'm doing exactly that. Also, it's about time I did.
Actually feeling fairly happy! Something I don't think i've had in a long time, and that makes me frown, because, I was always a happy person. I suppose sometimes you just have to realise what it is that does, and will make you happy.
Being a teacher, having someone to love and care for; (that happily, feels the same way!), keeping in touch with my girls and closest friends (yes, you, Joan, Alice, Jamie, Tom and Amy!) and still continue to be able to read and write in amongst it. Not much to ask for is it?
I'm finally, hoping, that this is all going to come true.
I'm finally smiling again, and trying to put myself first (doesn't mean I don't no longer care about people, hell no!) but, I can't please everyone.. I know that now, so it's about time I started pleasing myself! Just a shame you have to loose some parts behind.. but eh, have to give and take. Doesn't mean I stopped loving them, no, just means i've began to stop hurting. I'll always love and care for them. Deep down they know that.
Friday, 1 January 2010
Video - Lights
Here is another video. It's very bad quality, yet somehow, I actually like this. I'm in the car driving with the lights of the lamps on the side of the road, and car lights.
I firstly take the video, with the distracting noises, and then when I upload them, again in silence. The different lights on my open pages and in my room alter the video slightly, or in some cases alot. (If anyone wants to see the originals - give me a bell!)
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