It's like..

.. I need you. Right now. Like waiting for another couple of minutes isn't enough. I need you and want you here with me now. I want to cuddle and kiss you.

what's happened to everyone?

Like the title says - what's happened to everyone? It's like everyone i've known outside my family has disappeared.. (well besides Chris). I swear I haven't spoken to anyone else for months.. And I can't fully answer why that's happened. I'm still here, I have the same number and contact details. I still live in the same house, in the same street.. so what's been going on?

I mean yeah, i'm busy these days and got lots going on in my own world, but doesn't mean I can't have a chat to anyone else. Maybe this is why no-one has got in contact? Hmm, I don't know what's happened to be honest.
But saying that, i've got rid of a couple of people that i'm not hugely bothered about, and possibly having a better time due to it. But apart from that, oh well.. talk to people when I do, I suppose.

OMG I FORGOT ECLIPSE.

Yesterday, randomly I remembered, in the middle of the day that Eclipse was out in the cinema. How is it when you've been waiting for a day for ages, that you actually forget it? It's like getting stupidly excited for your birthday and totally forgetting the fact.. it is your birthday till the evening.

I feel like a terrible Twilight fan. Actually i'd go as far as saying I feel like i'm not a true fan at all. I don't get how I forgot. (Well actually I do, it's 'cos i've been busy with the moving and getting ready for stuff). Though saying that.. it's not an excuse, Oh and I can't say that i've heard anyone talk about the new film. Maybe, everyone forgot? Hehehehe!

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I wish I never looked.

Do you ever have it where, when you see something you really like - actually it's perfect in almost every way, and you know you can't have it, that you know it wouldn't be financially possible.. it's not a practical idea. Yet you can't stop thinking about it. It keeps popping back in your head and heart.

To a point where you wish you never saw it, well it's kinda how i'm feeling.

as the time is moving on.

I have to say that I am actually pretty happy at the moment, it feels like everything is coming together snuggly and i'm loving every minute. I like having things to organise and sort out, even though i'm a terribly disorganised person - yeah, I don't know how it works either! And i'm having lots to sort out. Me and Chris have decided that we want to be together properly, so currently in a look to find our own place.. We have spent many hours talking about how we hate being apart and feeling like our time is up before it has started, so we're looking at places, and it's so exciting. Looking for a place to be with your other half and just knowing it's your little home that you can be together. I know it all seems a fairytale, but it's how i've always visioned it. Also we want to almost test run a married life and having our own responsibilities and means of dealing with our own stuff. I'm going to be going back north to near his base as he's said he wants to stay in the RAF. (to much of my disappointment.) but, I respect the fact he wants to, so come to a compromise where we can both deal with the situation. So that's really exciting, and can't wait for that to happen.. but going up there in the next week to have a look at a few places :)

Ooooh and today I was being a teeny bit naughty and tried a few wedding dresses on! Well it's not naughty, we've set a date and we're starting to plan it so it's alright.. it was such fun, I really enjoyed it, I could've spent all day doing it! Dresses look so beautiful.. and also the ones you don't expect to look good! There was some that I was thinking 'OMG. that looks strange.' tried it on and it was gorgeous. Oh and a message to wedding dresses manufactures - make them the right SIZE!! They don't have the dresses the right size.. it's like you need 4 sizes bigger than you actually are.. it's kinda ridiculous. you make people panic! seriously. You need to sort it out. Apart from that, i'm looking forward to organising my wedding! :)