I have been asked to be a Godmother!

I am so happy, that I've been asked to be Godmother to one of the most beautiful and lovely little girls I've ever known.
I honestly feel so lucky and proud to be given such a massive title, I suppose. I've taken it very seriously and was full of 'yes' when I was asked. I've known Lauren's mum, Jessica since I was like 3 years old, we went to playgroup and school together.. yes we've had our differences, but I still consider her a friend. It was lovely to know that Jess felt she was able to trust me enough to consider me having Lauren if anything was to happen to her or her partner.
I've always wanted to be someone's Godmother.. and it seems my wish has become true! *squeal*

Wandering Thoughts.

So I've named this video, Wandering Thoughts.
I suppose it's a fairly personal account and issue, but I decided to post it on my blog. Do leave comments and/or thoughts, if you wish.
It's about my worry of Freddie when he was loosing weight and how he's getting better. some of you will know about this subject more than others. I hope you like it.

That moment of realising.

So, yeah, it was something someone on Sunday said that I didn't really think about at the time, however last night I gave it some more thought. I was just hanging out with my family and chatting and my Brother just randomly ask if I got a birthday card from my Dad.
I didn't.
At that time, I was just mixed emotions, I felt sad mostly, because, as much as I say that my father is useless and doesn't care, I know he probably does deep down, but he's just never shown it. Also, I'm first to admit he's been a crap father,  but he's always sent a birthday card or text just to say it, y'know? And I'd always reply with a quick and polite 'Thank-you' and move on.
I suppose I've got to the point where I get polite and move on, 'cos I've always felt let down and hurt by my father. He's always just dropped both me and my brother when it's suited him (whether he knows it or not) and I don't really want to let it happen again. I don't believe him when he says it wouldn't happen again, cos it always has, only this time, he's never said it again.
I think it might be the end of a relationship with him. I say it more now than I ever will because I have my own family and I won't allow him to do the same to my child as he did to me as a child. I won't allow him to make false promises, hugs, kisses and 'I love yous' to my son, nor to me anymore.
I guess in that moment that I realised, that my father had no thought or presence on my birthday is the day I've realised that I've become my own woman and have moved on with that failed relationship and hurt. That email I wrote to him before Freddie's birthday, did the world of good for me, it's the end of that chapter, the end of him.

One year older..

So I've finally made it to my 21st Birthday. I am officially what they call an adult, well they say it's 18, but, it's meant to be 21.

I had quite a nice day, I didn't do anything particularly out of order as I still wasn't feeling very well. (yep, had a bug all week!) so I hung out on the sofa watching One Tree Hill (a present to myself) and feeling sorry for myself. Well not so much the "feeling sorry for myself" part; as I had presents! Also, they were all ones I actually wanted, which is pretty awesome..

I got this gorgeous bag from Chris, I'm very much in love with it, so red,.. so shiny and beautiful!


















My Grandparents bless them are so lovely and brought me a Kettle and Microwave, both red! *squeal* My old ones were hand-me-downs and we've had them since we've moved in, so actually they're rather appreciated and loved.

My parents are waiting until they've been paid on wednesday, but they said they'll probably give me money! Woo! :-)
My Auntie got me a 'Next' Voucher, which I think I'll keep for Bobby's Wedding as they do have the most gorgeous stuff in there!
On top of that, my Damien Hirst Ticket came through the letter box! Happy as! :-))

I actually find this man very attractive.

Tom Ward. A name that's so easy to remember, by syllables and by looks. "Once seen, never forgotton." Quite Literally.
He plays Harry Cunningham in Silent Witness, in which I completely adore. Such a great programme and such a massive fan! Loveee! (some sexy pics for anyone who doesn't know him!)

Damien Hirst, London Exhibition

I am a huge, Damien Hirst fan. I am totally in love with all the work he has ever done; old and new. He's an amazing bloke (he seems it from interviews and looks) and an even better artist.
At college I remembering doing loads of research and work on him and quoting him loads in my own artwork. Also, done an essay for my final, big essay in last year comparing him to others of the YBA's (Young British Artists).
So I am incredibly excited and thrilled to actually be going to his huge Exhibition in London, Tate Modern. I'm hoping to go in the summer, and physically cannot wait to go and see his work in person. I will do an enormous post after I come back, hopefully with lots of photo's of the trip with some of the girls.

If you're interested in Art and fancy popping along to his exhibition, the tickets are only £15.50 and is carrying on until 9th September. I'll add the link at the end of the post.
Also, if you want to have a preview of the Exhibition or want to know more about Damien Hirst as an Artist, check out the Documentaries that has been shown on 4oD a couple of weeks ago.

Exhibition: http://www.tate.org.uk/whats-on/tate-modern/exhibition/damien-hirst
4oD (there are two video's, one, a documentary and another is the preview to Exhibition.) http://www.tate.org.uk/whats-on/tate-modern/exhibition/damien-hirst
www.tate.org.uk/whats-on/tate-modern/exhibition/damien-hirst

Casually looking around on Twitter..

So I was being nosey on a Followers page and randomly decided to take the time to look at what this person does. I felt incredibly guilty that I haven't done before now.. (I've been chatting to him about various things!). But, actually I was blown away, literally.
Now most people know that I am an arty person and love all things colourful, but have a special love of monochrome and busy art, so to speak. So was casually looking through this person's Twitter page; I found a web address and like you do, you open a new window and see what the deal is!
Wow. Pretty much covered it - such an incredible artist! Mostly done with a biro.. Who knew you could create something really cool with an everyday object. (I tell you, art doesn't have to be an expensive thing!) It was pretty spectacular.. such intricate and unique drawings. Best thing is, you can actually get him to do stuff for you too! (obviously for a price, no artist do much for free!)
 I can't really do it justice, so you'll have to have a nosey like I did. Here's the link: http://www.biro-art.com/

Zoomumba

I've kinda got a little involved in playing this game. You basically run your own Zoo - but it's so much fun! Loving it :-) Take a look..

If you fancy having a go (it's great if you're feeling bored!) go on.. google and type "Zoomumba", oh and add me as a friend at imz91 - possibly see you there?

So...

So, I went out with the (deaf)(2 being teachers of deaf) girls on tuesday night and it was fantastic. I had a real good laugh, and to be honest, as a mother who doesn't get much time to myself, it was lovely to have adult conversation, besides my parents and family members. (normally I'm talking to Fredders!)
It's just that one comment that someone made at the table that kind've ruined the evening for me, and I'm still reeling after it.. that I was 'self-centred'. Now, I have never been viewed as self-centred in all my life, so it hurt to think that supposedly one of my friends think that I am. I don't know if it's because I was talking about my life (remembering that I haven't seen this particular individual for nearly a year) to her and saying about Fred and Chris etc, but despite that, it was hardly me talking all night when she was doing the same about what she's been up to. I'm a listener and a talker, I obviously have an opinion, but I care about my friends and want to know about them. So I'm confused. I actually felt so upset, that I almost became paranoid that I was, but I asked Chris and he said that I was the least self-centred person he knew - so that's good enough for me. Just thought it was totally the wrong time, but another friend did stand up for me and said she didn't think I was or ever had been so that made me feel supported. :-)

A little something to feast on!

You don't even realise how true this is! (I shared this on my Facebook - I think it's a perfect post!)

I'm totally up for gay marriage.. and to be honest if one of my children (well, currently only 1 child, but I will be having more!) was gay, i'd be very happy for them! I honestly think it's good for people to feel like they're able to show their sexuality - it's not the sex, it's the person. Male, or Female; who cares? (Although personally I hope not all my children would be gay, 'cos I would like to have some Grandchildren! :-) (Just think in 15 years, it could happen!)