Hello Beauties!

Hey, so I kinda come on here and realised there were loads of posts I haven't read from everyone's blogs! wow, it's so unlike me. I hope you're all doing well and by some of the entries sounds like everyone's having fun :)
I've kinda been having some fun of my own.. well, not really, I haven't done much recently apart from work, but I'm really enjoying it at the moment, especially the Christmas things! I dunno about you but Christmas is getting earlier and earlier every year.. you know the world has it bad when the adverts are on in OCTOBER. Like I always find it funny with the DFS advert where the Elf says 'order now and have it delivered in time for Christmas' - Erm, I damn well hope so, seeing as it's OCTOBER. I'm sorry, I have to keep reminding people it's actually not even Halloween yet. It's not the end of October. Yet everywhere it's Christmas, Christmas.. I just, I don't know, it kills the spirit of Christmas doesn't it?, celebrating it like 3 months before it seems to be happening.. 'cos then it comes and you're like, JEEZ IT'S NOT HERE YET?! I WANT IT TO BE OVER AND DONE WITH NOW!
So in a way, I'm excited cos it's time with family, but I just don't want it to be displayed everywhere, at least not till Halloween is over, right? It just becomes a little too much.. I like to look forward to it mid november-ish, then you can start getting all 'oooh, how exciting!' over it all. So yeah, my Christmas cards on the website will be out soon, kinda happy with how they all come out, so do make sure you check them out and buy, buy, buy... :-) (more info on that)

Not much else to report at this moment in time. Love you alls!

blergh.

I'm guessing i'm not the only person in the world to feel like this. I mean even I hardly feel like it, but I do.
 I kinda miss my freedom, I miss being able to just do my own stuff.. not owing time to anyone or anything. I know it sounds stupid, 'cos I'm so lucky in life, I have people who genuinely care and love me. I have some of the best friends anyone could ask for, I have my own place, a beautiful son and loving husband.. the start of my own business. I suppose I just miss being spontaneous and just doing what I like, when I like. It sounds incredibly selfish doesn't it? I'm sorry it isn't meant to, at all, I just guess I miss being .. I don't even know.
 I suppose I miss what could've been? Does that make sense? I reckon that's what I miss. Like when me and chris went away, I was looking around this shop, it had lots of little arty bits and I came across something that really took my eye, it was the most simple, but colourful design on a pencil case and I just loved it. I loved everything this person had done.. Then I read about this person (as there were a blurb) and she had studied at the same University I started studying at, and done a course that I was initially interested in, and was in awe - simply because it was like what I wanted. I liked her designs and I liked what she has then achieved. I kinda in a way, wanted to be her. I know this sounds like waffle, but I suppose I wish I could act my age again.
My friends are all completely different. I envy the single ones and the dating ones, I envy the ones with jobs and cars - going out and going on holiday; having money to spend. But I feel safe with the ones who have kids and married, settled down, because they're like me. I find it hard to be around the single ones, probably because it's hard to keep up and go out and spend the money, so in fact I kinda get left behind from them a little and lean back to the ones like myself. I'm not going to say i'm unhappy because i'm not, far from it, my life is busy and there's always something to do and is fulfilled with laughs and happiness. I like my life very much, I just sometimes wish I could get that feeling of being free back at times and a sense of achievement.

Wedding Anniversary

So it's been mine and Chris's Wedding Anniversary. 2 years gone.. It's been so quick, but an amazing 2 years :)
We went away for a mini break which was lovely, just to get away from home for a little while! It gets boring doing the same thing day in and out.. so to go away was rather blissful. Also to spend some well earned time together just the two of us. With us both working and having Freddie too limits, 'mummy and daddy time' (so to speak). We managed to have a lie-in till 8.30am?!!! (yes that's a lie-in when having kids!) and could even have a hot meal..
Also we went to the cinema, after a lovely walk and talk, oh and giggles! We saw Taken 2 which was amazing! We loved every second of it, rather like a bond film, full of action and rather dishy men to admire (don't tell Chris..).
My mum looked after Freddie for the night (no surprise there!) not that he noticed we'd gone.. when we came back to collect him he was busy watching TV! was like 'cheers love, love you too!' but a night away can really change everything and put in perspective, exactly why we are together and married. (I highly recommend it!)

October Wishes

So I've decided to do a 'wishlist' of the things I desperately want to buy, but I have no money to get.. so really it's a way of putting all the things I quite fancy together. Most of you will know that I've been out with my mum shopping and looking around places recently.. well, if I had the money, these would be my first buys!

(so if you're stuck what to get me for Christmas.. here's a few suggestions! :p)

*New Hair*

So many of you will know that I've dyed my hair for the first time EVER. (well, full head) so, here's a couple of pics for the change over.. I like my new hair :) woo! (apologies for lack of make-up and ugly face) :) 

Before:

After: 

Freddie; 19 months

So I realised I haven't done a post on my little boy recently, so I thought i'd give you a show of some of my recent photo's ...

 He has a doll called Bibi and he loves her to bits! He kisses and hugs her.. oh and feed her breakfast. (it's a distraction whilst his is heating up)

 We brought him a cooking set as he's grown fond of mixing things in buckets and pots, so we've got a little two ring one that makes noises.. he's rather impressed!

 I had to include this one as it made me laugh! I kept asking him to smile for me and he went 'aaaaaaah!' really loud and well this is what the camera captured!

He's started growing up loads the last few months. Started to show a massive interest in trying to feed himself with a spoon.. so for the safety of our floors, walls and furniture we've been encouraging him to eat using dried foods so it doesn't get everywhere - if anything only crumbs! He's rather enjoying it.. :) we're ever so proud of him as he is starting to want to sit at the table like myself and chris, so it wasn't a surprise we found him out the blue sitting up the dining table! :)


I have a funny little video to show you, of Freddie attempting to hoover (he's trying to be mummy!) In this video I went to answer the phone to Chris and Freddie took over the hoovering.. You can hear both me and Chris chatting on the phone whilst Freddie's hoovering *hehe*

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I'm going to dye my hair..

So, I've been thinking of the idea for like, forever?! Least the last 2 years.. but the truth is, I've never, done a complete head dye! I've had highlights and lowlights, like 3 years ago, and loved them..
I have to say, I've always been a little scared and backed out, just in case I never liked it. But I've finally got the guts to do it! So, I've gone for a reddy, brown.. "Auburn" apparently. My mum reckons it will suit me - so fingers crossed! What do you think?

I promise I'll upload pictures before & after for you :)

*Owl Necklace*

So yesterday I went shopping with with my Mumma in the City. It was a lovely day, so warm and sunny.. Also had some money to splash (due to the business) so I was able to buy myself a couple of treats! (And well, I deserve it anyhow!)
I'm an enormous fan of long necklaces (I always have!) but, admittedly I don't wear them as often as I used to.. Simply as Freddie keeps pulling them, and earrings! But it doesn't stop me from buying this beauty.
I instantly fell in love with this owl necklace from Accessorize! (I looked in the window display and knew I had to have it!) I love the fact that owls are making such a hit at the moment, everywhere you go, theres beautiful owl patterns. (I'm lapping it up :))  He has actual feathers and is so soft; the eyes look adorable and falls at such a lovely length. There was a choice of this one and also one with 'peacock feathers' .. I  may have to get that one too at a later date.. hehe! I will keep him forever, however I am scared to wear it in case I ruin it. But meh, gotta love it whilst you still can. :)
He goes with every outfit and is wow. Safe to say, I'm rather smitten with him ^.^
Fancy one yourself? Well he's only £12!

Trust.

So last night I watched a film called 'Trust'. I have never felt so moved by a film ever. I suppose that's why I'm talking about it, but I just was in tears, but genuine tears. I never normally cry at films unless it has some personal link or something I feel strongly about.
This film wasn't shown in the cinema. It was based as a small film, but because of it's nature they weren't allowed to show it worldwide. It's a highly sensitive film to watch.. because, myself I understood the parts of both sides, the girl and the parents. This film was about a young girl (14) developing a friendship over the internet over a few months, and he suggests meeting up, yet actually it's a man in his 40's and results in a sexual assault. Watch the Trailer here.
Alot of young people talk to people they don't know over the internet, and most will be harmless, but some clearly are not. There's no way you'd know about whether they were or not. I personally have spoken to lots of people online, how many of them were not who they seemed to be? Who knows, luckily for myself I have never been put in a situation where I had to find out. So, I understood how the girl felt, but the guy wasn't who he seemed to be, he groomed her essentially and the parental side of me was just crying out to her to realise, but she was so young and innocent.. that he worked her round. So that's also why I understood the parents argument, I couldn't imagine how it'd be if my daughter, or son got in that position, I suppose I'll never know. But it was just so heartbreaking, because they were such a lovely, happy family and something so tragic and emotional, ruined, what seems everything. They lost trust with each other, between the parents, and the parents with the girl.. They just didn't know what happened, or was happening.. And for that I felt so much towards them, the feeling of not doing their part, stop it from happening. Just so much emotion.

I watched the Director (David Schwimmer) on This Morning doing an interview about this film, as it was the first film he has directed. He was talking about how they came about it, how they tried to show it and everything about it. It was originally made for rape aware, so that young crowds and parents can see the effects of such trauma.
I honestly recommend this film to anyone, I have to say it was incredibly powerful stuff and well I have to class it as one of my top 5 favourite films of all time.