Second Best

Have you ever been so in love, you would actually die for them?
The world suddenly over night, evolves around them, and you wonder what's happened to your life. They seem to have that power over you that no-one else has ever seen. Even yourself is quizzical as to how it happens. Also saying 'no' and turns inot one ghelpless yes please! with a begging ring of tone. However much they let you down, you stupidly feel like it doesn't matter, they get a million and one excuses for their behaviour. As if everything they do is beyond perfect and nothing will be better than them, yet everyone around tell you different.
But you still love them.
Nothing is the same without them, so if they were going to disappear, you may as well just die on this very spot. There is no point otherwise.
One moment you feel so close, like nothing can change anything, simply because no-one has ever been like this with them. As far as you know. They have the words to smouldering your heart. Make you feel important and so special, as if you actually mean just as much to them as they do you. Do they feel like that, too? Or tell me what i want to hear, and to believe? Most probably.
It doesn't help that there is someone else in the picture too. Someone who's so much better than you in everything. It's not even a competition. Shouldn't consider it.
Everything you've done together, feels like a distant memory. Yet so close, but such a long time ago! Turning time around; if only there was such a power.
Then you feel low, and they talk to you, make everything better, but you know you'll only ever be second best. In everything that you do. Wanting to crawl into their arms, and mention all the scary things. They open them strong arms, then when someone comes along, they close them. Again, second best. They look at you adoringly - but you know you'll only ever be second on every list imaginable, however perfect the words they speak.
Have you ever been so in love that it feels like it only causes physical pain?
Your mind and state of play is based on how the status is between the pair of you. It's empty till they walk in the room. They are the reason.
You know they love you, yet you know it's all a big show. As if it's all a fantasy, nothing more or less, a huge bad dream, a nightmare. How can you pull such feelings out of someone who will never completely be honest with you, maybe lie to get their way.
It doesn't matter to really think about it. I'll only ever be second best. So much for best friends.